Kak Linda's Wedding Photos!




The 3 kendarat or something like that..






The only me..





The 3 Pretty girls



Nana & Lala




Me and Bik Siti



Isaac and me in the morning of the wedding



After the hard day of work, we changed then we take picture.Whee!



Trip to America and Canada!

Me looking sad thinking about everyone in Singapore. Was at Miami international airpot.






Me together with auntie olga and uncle melgan at a Shopping Centre




Big happy Family




The caravan we used to go to Canada



Closer look on the caravan




My long lost auntie together with me and isaac and ryan and randall.



Finally the whole family were reunited :)




The cutie Randall Oreth



Me and Isaac at the Niagara Falls.




Behind the falls



Niagara Falls



Niagara Falls




Me and Isaac at Toronto Science Centre.




At Canada,Toronto with everyone.




Auntie,Isaac me and Nenek




At disneyworld!



Me at Disneyworld. Magic Kingdom



Daddy, me and Isaac at toontown..

- What dreams are made of by Hilary Duff

"What Dreams Are Made Of"


Hey now
Hey now

Hey now
Hey now


Have you ever seen such a beautiful night?
I could almost kiss the stars for shining so bright
When i see you smiling, I go
oh oh oh
i would never want to miss this
cuz in my heart i know what this is


[Chorus]
Hey now
Hey now
This is what dreams are made of
Hey now
Hey now
This is what dreams are made of
I've got somewhere i belong
I've got somebody to love
This is what dreams are made of


(Hey now)
(Hey now)


Have you ever wondered what life is about?
You could search the world and never figure it out
you don't have to sail the oceans
no no no
happiness is no mystery it's here now it's you and me


[Chorus]


Open your eyes (This is what dreams are made of)
shout to the sky (This is what dreams are made of)


Then i see u smiling, I go
oh oh oh
Yesterday my life was duller
Now everything's technicolor

[Chorus]

(Hey now)
(Hey now)
Hey now
This is what dreams
This is what dreams are made of
Hey now
Hey now
This is what dreams are made of
I've got somewhere i belong
I've got somebody to love
This is what dreams are made of
(Hey now)
(Hey now)
Hey now
This is what dreams
This is what dreams are made of

Bored

Well i am sick again..Shit lah..Everytime sick..I was on mc yesterday and today..Haiz..I am so bored..Today suppose to have POA test and Social Studies test but now i missed it..Haiz..


Yesterday was our 8th month anniversary..He came over to my house cause my mum dont let me go out cause i was sick..So ya he stayed till 9 then he went home..He is feeling sad right now cause i cant go out with him today..He wanted to go out with me so badly..And i also want to go out with him..Haiz..He no mood..I know he angry with me..Why am i so stupid as to get sick..I am sick at a wrong time..


His god-sister i think messaged me in the morning..Everytime she message i will feel so hurt and i will cry deep inside my heart..Cause one of the message she sent is ' msg him lah. talk to him. he sad than you dont want to do anything. ' i felt so hurt that i feel like killing myself..How does she know whether i am doing anything or not..I would rather die then hurt him..No one knows me..Only my sis does..But she is now too busy..I cannot tell her anything..I dont want to make her sad..I have no one to turn to..I am so lonely..I need someone..His so called god sis is not helping but making me more guilty..I have never felt like this before..I know i am in the wrong..But if he is sad i am too..


I am so called you can say Daddy's pet..I am the one who is scared of defying my parents..I always get help from my sister..I want to go out with him also i so scared..It is not that i dont want to go out with him..But it is just that..Haiz..I dont know what to say already..No one knows what i am feeling now..I just want to cry..I dont know what to do anymore..I give up..


There is alot of questions in my head that needs answering..And i can only tell that it is really2 alot.. I dont know how to answer them..


Here i am
Once again
I'm torn into pieces
Cant deny it
Cant pretend
just thought you were the one
Broken up deep inside
But you wont get to see the tears i cry
Behind these hazel eyes


Lyrics from Kelly Clarkson, Behind these hazel eyes.Haiz.


Aqilah Oreth :'(

Fcuked up

Haiz today was just so bad i say..I am getting a fever..I think..I dont know whether i am quarreling with him but i am not angry with him..I love him too much to be angry with him..Really..I guess no one reads my blog except myself..Haiz..I dont know who to turn too..I dont know what to do anymore..I just want to break down and cry!!! I really2 dont know what to do anymore..


Got to go dont know do whatever shit i have to do



Aqilah Oreth :'(

Depressed!

Well today i never go school..Yup..That is why i am here blogging..I am going to the doctor later maybe..Have headache since like forever..Trying to find out why..But nothing comes in my mind..Haiz he is also not in school today..He was crying in the morning..Cause his dad beat him..I dont know ar..Then i message him no one replied..I was messaging to no one..Thinking about him is making me going crazy..I have sleepless nights..I will wake up at 3.30 in the morning..I dont know why..But it has been going on for days..Weird it is always around 3.30..Haiz..Well what the hell


I dont know what is going on with my life..I have been like always alone..I miss my sis..I miss him..They have their N' level so i cant do anything..Haiz..But i am really like super sad..Sometimes i feel like breaking down and cry my heart out..But every night i have been crying cause i miss him alot..Haiz..My sis has been stressed..But i will try to help her in any way i can..But first i must do something about my life..I wish my sis would not be so stressed up then at least i could still tell her my problems..Even my schoolmates i dont want to tell..Cause i cannot trust anyone now..Haiz.Everything has changed..


Lets see if this goes on forever..If it does i am really going to die..Haiz..Even school is difficult..Have tests for the next whole week...On top of worrying about my studies i have to worry about all the other things in the world..My life is in a mess..I need to work it out..


got to go..Cannot think of what to write already..Shit..


Depressed Aqilah Oreth.

-bored

Ok so life is boring for me..Sis say i have been lazy lately..I hope i am not..So maybe starting from next week my days will be filled with activities..Be it jogging,swimming or studying..I must do something..One of the reasons is so i wont be so sad without him..I wont call him anymore..I dont want to disturb him with his studies and i want him to rest more..

Life has been so different..I feel like i am in a changed world..Even my friends have changed..I miss my old times..Now i am a lonely girl..I am like so bored..Even my sis dont have time for me no more..She has got her 'N level to worry about..Now is everybody is doing their own stuffs..Quite sad actually for me..

Today i went out..Went to take my grandma from the hospital..While i was there i thought of what would i do if i have to stay there alone..I would want to experience..Who would care for me? Many questions..Haha..Stupid me..Who wants to stay in a hospital? Then from there went to Suntec City and then Wisma Atria the Shing Siong..Alot of places huh in just one day..Damn bloody tired though..And worst of all i have my menses..Shit lah..And i had headache since like forever and i am coughing and sneezing..I am full of nonsense lah.. Now everybody is watching Kingdom Of Heaven..Stupid show if you ask me..I am not interested..So here i am..Blogging away..


Well that it is for now..My hands are getting numb..


Lots of hugs and Kisses
-Aqilah Oreth

-Post

School has started and so far it has been boring.. Nothing has changed except for one sad thing..Later i will talk more of it..


The USA trip is ok ..I went to Canada, Toronto..There i went to the Niagara Falls..Then i was at Florida and ya i went to Disneyworld..It was ok..


I am stressed up now..Everything is so..Argh!! I cant describe it..I cant go back with him anymore..Today i walked home then i hear the 'We Belong Together' and i actually cried..Shit me..But i think he dont know and i dont want to tell him..I dont wish to make him sad anymore..From this day onwards i will try to make him happy.. Haiz..I so miss him alot..I am going to see less of him nowadays..


Some of the lyrics that i like from 'We Belong Together' by Mariah Carey

When you left i lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please, cause
We belong together



Argh!! I am missing him like crazy!!


Got to go already..


Bye..


lots of hugs and kisses,
Aqilah Oreth

Home Sweet home soon!

I am leaving for Singapore soon..

Will update when i reach Singapore about my trip to Canada and America..

Got to go shopping now..

Till next time..

Sayonara..


Aqilah Oreth

Misses

Hey i just miss everyone in Singapore..I cant live without my sister..I just miss her disturbing me and making me irritated..I hope time passes fast..So i can go and hug my sister.. I miss my mummy.. I miss how she use to scold me all the time but i know she loves me..I miss Abdul.. I miss talking to him and doing stuffs with him..


Now here inAmerica is 1.30 in the afternoon..My daddy and bro is sleeping..I am crying here...Alone..Yesterday we had a party here..It was my other cousin i guess..I was not there..I was in my room alone..Missing my baby and my sister..Haiz :'( I might go out today..I want to get my sis things and my mummy's things..i might not update tomorrow or the next day cause i might go out..I am leaving for Canada on Monday which means i cant go online..I am so going to miss everyone..Sobx :'(


I got to go..I hope everybody is doing fine there in Singapore..Take care..


.: Hugs and misses :.
.: Aqilah Oreth :'( :.


In America is afternoon
In Singapore is morning

In America

Well me updating from America..It has been 7 years since the last time i came here..And everything changed..Ryan has grown bigger..He is heavier than Isaac imagine that..Randall here just like to smile and be happy..such a cutie.. Now it is night but in Singapore it is morning.


I so miss my sister..I so miss my mummy..I so miss Abdul..I so miss everyone..But i will try to be happy yeahs here..But just remember everyone of my friends..I LOVE YOU GUYS!!


Kak Yana please dont cry anymore..It really hurts me knowing that you cried for me..I am sad too..But i will come back and buy for you loads of thing..I LOVE YOU ALOT2 okies..Remember that i am always by your side no matter where i am..Stay happy..


Abdul Nur i know you are sad also..But no matter where i am also i will never forget you cause you are my baby darling..Take care! Study hard..Take care of my sis okies..Make sure


Ok..I got to go..Take care..Abdul Nur eat and gain more weight and get well soon..Kak yana study hard and all your dreams may be fufiled...Good luck..


.: Lots of hugs and misses :.
.: Aqilah Oreth:.

Time in America: 1.22am
Time is Singapore: 12.26pm

leaving to america!

Well this might be my last post in Singapore till i go to America..I am going on the 8th June at 6am in the morning..


Well i hope it will be a good experience for me..Going there as a teenager..Shopping there,having fun there and do all the stuffs a teenager would do there.. I am so going to miss doing all these thing with my sis..She is like my companion but she wont be there with me in America..But i will miss her alot2..

I will miss all my friends and Abdul also..


Got to go already..Sorry short entry but i will try to update more okies...


Till next time...


Sayonara


Take care everyone..


Enjoy your holidays..


.:Lots Of Hugs And Kisses.:
.:Aqilah Oreth.:

Results and yesterday BBQ

Well the results are out..I failed Social Studies.. by a damn one mark and the teacher does not want to give me the marks...I got first for my chemistry..Quite shocking..I got 47/50..Its like the best mark i ever recieved..I finally pass my geography but only 20/40..But a good try..I pass my maths..Its like i thought i will fail..But i got 70/100..Whee..Then my POA is the most shocking..I got 50/100..Imagine that..But i am so going to push myself to pass with flying colours for POA..My physics i dont know how much but i know i passed..And my mother tongue and english passed..Phew..So i passed all except my stupid damn Social Studies..Cant wait to get report book..My dad might buy me and ipod or not..If not then i will aim it for end of year..


Yesterday we had BBQ..Yups to celebrate modern dance achievement..Not much..It was at my place..To my modern dance peeps and Farah and Miss Tan..Glad that you had fun..I am just really glad..Thanks..But yesterday i was super tired..It is like i need to carry all the things and on top of that i had a super-duper bad headache..But i just kept quiet..Went home around 11 and went to bath..I was super exhausted..So i am actually glad that it was over..

Well all this happiness has some sadness along it..I am quarreling with him..I know i was stupid..I am now being selfish by still being angry about it..But i really feel like a fool always messaging him then he will call..I know he has no phone..But try to get one at least to tell me he is coming home late..It is like...Haiz...Dont want to go to details..Well i know that i was treated like a nobody..I will think about forgiving him..In the mean time i will not call him..


Today i woke up early cause of my granny..Shit lah..Then i was like already super tired then i became super duper tired...Then later i am going to watch movie with my cousins..And guess what..A model agency called my hp and i am going for an audition on Tuesday..I think i am so happy..Whee..


I got to go get ready to go to the movies..Bye everyone..


Lots of hugs and kisses,
Aqilah Oreth :'(

Lost :'(

Well Mid-Year Exams are finally over...Phew..It was damn stressful man..Today was POA and my mind went blank for a moment..It is like my brain stopped thinking..But i think i can pass ar..

I dont know why but i feel like i am losing my friends..All those who used to share all their secrets with me is gone..Just like whoosh...It is gone..Haiz..Kinda feel lonely these days..I dont know whether i did anything wrong or i am just meant to have no friends..Haiz..What the hell.. Friends are whom i will treasure always..No matter what wrong they did to me i will forgive and forget..Like Tasha..She will always be the one who helps me through any difficulty that i face..And for that i am greatful to her..

Abdul and i are ok and our 6th Anniversary is last Saturday...And baby i am thankful for being there for me always and being that special one in my life..Thanks alot..I am really grateful and i love you alot no matter we fight okies..I may be petty sometimes but i guess that is how girl mind works..Like i told you girls like to be pampered..So i am like any other girls okies..It was fun eating breakfast with you this morning..Thanks..Love you loads always..

Well me got to go rest..I am super tired and i have this freaking headache..What the hell..So sayonara everybody..Take care..


Lots of hugs and kisses,
Aqilah Oreth

Whatever..

Well exams so far have been so difficult except for Chemistry..I have been so stresed out this few days due to the exams..What the hell..


I am so stressed up at home..Everyday i will get scolding..Its like..Argh..I can go crazy..I have to go through shit at home and my schoolwork..I cant cope..


I am trying to cope with my relationship as well..But it really is difficult..I am trying..Really...


No one seems to understand me...I am suffering in silence you can say..Haiz...Whatever :'(


Got to go already..


Aqilah Oreth :'(

My life!

I dont know what the hell is happening with my life this few days but i have been very stress indeed..Not only on my studies..But my normal life..

My exams has been ok i guess..Difficult but i tried..I did not give up..I wrote whatever i could remember..Today was English and Malay paper 2..Every day i study and i have been sleeping pretty late..But what the hell not everyday is exams..

My life this few days has been alot of thinking..I dont know what i am thinking but i guess it is most probably about me...I feel that someone is making my life miserable..Keeping quiet these few days..Just thinking..For him..I have been thinking alot too..And not to forget my studies cause of the exams..Hope that i will pass with flying colours..


Well life is going to be like this i guess forever..I hope it will get better though.. :'(

This few days i have been feeling sick too..Having stupid chest pains and headache..Not to mention i think i am getting a fever or i am having a fever... But trying to be happy in front of him so that he wont worry..Cause he is worrying on too much things already..Dont want to make him more worried..


Well got to go study for my chem test..Wish me luck..Bye


Lots of hugs and kisses,
Aqilah Oreth :'(

Swimming Day!!




Cutie Alya in her swimming costume..She looks so hot.. :)




Oh..The sexy girl coverd herself with her towel..Hehe...




Alya is sleeping in the pool..Hehe :) No lah..She just posing for the camera..Haha..



It was on self timer..That is why the picture is blur..And it is more to the floor..But this picture has Kak Linda,Me,My sis and Kak Nadiyah..



All of us after swimming..We are super dark but Kak Nadiyah is the darkest..Hehe :)


End of the photos..Will update more soon..Bye :)

Holiday

Yippee!Today is a public holiday but daddy isn't in..Hehe..He will be home tomorrow..Although it is a holiday i still have to study as tomorrow is the starting of mid year exam..Whoa..Time passes fast and it is already May..Next month will be June where i will be gone for 2 weeks from the 8th June..

Yesterday was like super fun...Hehe..Got to hand out with my cousins,Kak Linda and Kak Nadiyah and Alya..We were like retard people going swimming at 12..Hehe..We swam and playd around till 3..Kak Nadiyah was like super dark after swimming..Hehe..Later i will post some pics we took..Hehe..It has been a long time since we played together..I remember the young days where we love to play and take pics together...Yesterday bring back old memories..Old memories that i will never forget..I so Love Kak Linda and Kak Nadiyah..And dont forget..The cutie Alya..

Kak Linda is getting married next..I will be there okies..Cause it is before my trip..Lucky me..I so want to be there to see my cousin getting married..Cant wait...

Today Hui Shan and my baby is coming to my house to study..Abang Nazlie might come..Me got to go and do something...

Bye..

Lots of hugs and kisses,
Aqilah Oreth

Today!

We had PE today...I took my 2.4km..I am sick..But i just went ahead with the running..In the end my chest hurts alot..I drop and cried after running..How stupid of me...I want to thank Farhannah and Tasha alot2 and also Erin,Faezah for helping me..They're the best..Did not want to tell Abdul but in the end he found out through Abang Nazlie..I did not want him to worry..Really..Then today i went to take x-ray..Scary..First time..Then from there followed my mum here and there and now i am home writing blog..

Next week is my mid year..Super scary..Maybe i am too stress..Must relax..My studies are doing fine except for my geography..It sucks totally..How i wish i can drop the subject..I love maths! Not really ar..But i finally know how to do quadratic equations..Abit slow..But finnaly got it..Left with my bearings..Next week gonna stay back with Mr Lim so he can teach me..Yeahs..He is the best..I hope really2 to pass my combined humans and combine science..Yeah so i wont be blogging so much..But will try to update though..

Tasha:If you're reading this..I really am grateful to have found a friend..We will be best friends forever okies..One day we take the card neoprint just the two of us okies..Its a deal..Hehe..I really cannot live without you..Thanks ya...

3/7:If any of the 3/7 students is reading this..I am honoured to be in a great class...I love you guys..Thanks alot for worrying about me yeah...Thanks alot for helping me during the Karimun Trip and especially the climb..Thanks..Love you guys..Muacks..

All my other friends:Well i cannot live without my friends..They are always there to cheer me up..Especially Anansa(She is super funny),Nina(Always there for me),Nurul(Always make me smile),Syadariena(She is cute),Zuraidah,Lyanie,Abang Nazlie(he is the best),and definitely Amelea(She is always2 there for me) and all my other friends..Love you loads..Without you guys i am nothing..Thanks..

Modern Dance people: Man i love you guys..Miss dancing with you..Cant wait for the barbeque and start dancing again..Hehe :) You guys rawks..Take care okies..

My sister and brother:Thanks Isaac for making me cards to brighten up my day..I love you..And thank you kak yana for caring for me..In return i will lend you my hp till Sunday...Okies..Love you loads..

Darling:Thanks for caring about me..I really want you by my side always..But it cannot happen now so just wait okies..I will always remember you always..Love you..

Got to go already..Love you guys loads..Including my cousins and all that is related to me..And all the teachers and basically everybody..

Lots of hugs and kisses,
Aqilah Oreth

Karimun Photos!!



Farhannah,Faezah,Me and Anansa at the arrival place of Tanjong Balai Karimun :)




Thiyagaraj,Anansa,Farhannah,Faezah and me having breakfast at the school :)




The class that we taught..Boy they are cuties.. :)




Me, myself and I in my hotel room in the night of Thursday.. Just bath so i smell good...Going to Dedi's kitchen after that.. :)



Faezah,Me and Sharon before going out to Mount Jantan :)



Me and Farhannah taking picture with the bus..Hehe.. :)




Me and Anansa with the few instructors :)




Vicky,Sathish,Thinesh,Farhannah,Leong Kiat,Me and Satheesh at the boat..Whee :)



Leong,Anansa,Mr Gerad,Faezah,Me,Mr Peter and Farhannah the retarded people taking photos..Hehe :)


THE END OF KARIMUN PHOTOS!! HERE ARE SOME EXTRA PHOTOS!!




Isaac,Kak Liyana,Ella,Me and Fiqrish taking photo at home.. Cute aren't we? Hehe :)




Modern Dance people..Before SYF...Yeahs..We Rocks..Hehe :) We're the best!!


END OF THE PHOTOS!!

Back!

Well i am back from Karimun! Well there was basically ok..This is going to be a long entry..

On Thursday:
We reach there around 9 and we stright headed for the Madrasah Tsnawiyah Islamiyah..My group had to teach 2 classes..Well both class was great..Everybody was like asking for number and photo and autograph when we wanted to leave...Hehe :) So we gave some of them..My group..That is Anansa,Farhannah,Faezah and Raj was like ok as the four of us were the only malays and so we were lucky..Many other groups ask for help from us..So yeah we helped and went to other people class..We then headed to Dedi's Kitchen to eat..The food was damn nice..But i dont really eat much..So yups then we headed to the hotel to refresh..My hotel room was 5524..I slept with Faezah..Just the two of us..Yups..Then in the afternoon around 4 we went to another government school to play basketball and volleyball..Then we left that school around 6.30..Headed to Dedi's Kitchen again to eat..Nice..Then from there we went back to the hotel..We had to finish our reflection before we could go and shop..Everybody is like too rich..They bought loads of things..Me? Just bought a few things..Basically nothing to buy there..Then we went back to the hotel at 10.40..Straightaway ran up to watch my malay show then everybody was like making noise outside.So went outside to see and some of my friends came on..Just then the whole plsce went dark..Argh,,I was just about to sleep.Then the one sitting at the bottom of my leg, they slept at my leg..Ouch..Then Leong and Faezah and me went out together and then my leg was caught on the blanket..Damn it..Then after 3 mins the light came back and the teacher scolded us cause everybody was like screaming..Then i and Faezah went back to my room, off the tv and went to sleep..We slept at 12..

Friday:
Woke up at 5.30..Got ready then headed to the hotel lobby to have our breakfast...Till 7.30..Then we headed to Mount Jantan..We wenr up the mountain and phew it was pure hard work...Damn tiring..But managed to go up..With the help pf kaartigayan,Sathish,Pamela,Qing Xiu and Alannuo..Thank god i reached the summit..Then we had to go down...It was more difficult..But i managed to do it..Leong,Farhannah,Anansa,Vicky,Kaartigayan,Keith,Sathish and myself we got lost..With no trainer and no teacher..But we managed to find our way out of the mountain..Yipee..Then from the mountain we had to go to the hotel to check out..We were given half an hour to bath and get ready to go..Well we managed to do that..Then from the hotel we headed to Dedi's Kitchen for the last time..We ate..Then we left..We headed for the port and left Karimun..

Overall the trip is fun..Some did not even want to leave..3/7 survived the Karimun trip..We had fun..3/7 Rawks..

Well now i know my sister doubts me..She hates me..Fine..Just because of HP..Well it is not my fault you lost your hp..Then is it my fault that i cannot lend the phone to you..And i have my reasons for calling him baby..Not for fun..I know my other boyfriend i never call cause they are not..I never copy you or whatsoever when i call Abdul baby..Then if everybody call their boyfriend baby means they are copying you is it? Think properly ar.. Whenever i never help you,you will always say negative things about me..When i help you then you will love me..Whatever ar..I better dont help you right.. Now i know you are not thankful for what i have done..I am really thankful for your help to me...When you dont help me i will not think negatively like you..I know ar..Now i am just a blady bitch to you..And you do not want to be related to me...Its ok..Up to you..

Got to go already..Bye everybody..I will post pics on my next post okies..Take care..Muacks..

Lots of hugs and kisses,
Aqilah Oreth

Gone tomorrow!!

Well guys..Tomorrow is the day where i will not be in Singapore for 2 days..But please dont ever forget about me okies..

Not really packed yet...Dont feel like going..Haiz..Lost in space..Always daydreaming..Wake up girl..You're going tomorrow..Go pack..That is what my head is saying but i my heart is not saying anything..I am scared to go there..But i will still have to go..

Well everyone..Take care yeahs..Love you guys..And i love you baby...Take care..Make sure you eat..

GONNA MISS YOU GUYS ALOT!!! :'(

Got to go already..Take care..Got to pack bag..Byes.

Hugs and kisses,

Aqilah Oreth(Gone till Friday)

Today :)

Well in the morning went to school with stomachache and a flu..Then during assembly i had to run to the toilet with Faezah and guess what we both did? We vomited..Yups..It was disgusting..I vomited water and my sweet..Eeee..Told my darling and you know what he say..So how did it taste..Baddie :'( but its ok..I konw he still care about me..Well then go back to class and vomited again..This time it was just plain water..But it tasted so disgusting..

Just now he sent me home..Yups..We went back with my sis and Abang Nazlie..Then when he reached home he called me to say that he was back and wanted to talk to me for awhile..So i said okies..Then my mum came out and she started screaming at me..So i put down the phone and went to my room as i wanted to study..Then she say i showing attitude and came to my room and ask me what i was doing so i said i was studying and she told me why you studying and i told her ok lah dont need to study..Dont need to sit for mid year..Then she keep scolding me..She said why i so kurangajar in other words so rebellious.And i just kept quiet..Then she say who teach? Abdul ar..I dont like it when she say like that so i told her why must get him involved..Then she walk away..I am sick and tired..I am so stressed up by my work and all this..Trying to do well..Trying to make everybody happy..Well i guess i have to tolerate..

I am going to Karimun this Thursday and Friday..Hope everybody will be ok..Take care yeah ppl..Tomorrow is another day..Trying to go through with all the stress..Hope i can cope and not break down before the mid year..

My daddy is going to be home till thursday where he will go to Bangkok till Sunday..Going to miss him loads..And ya i am confirm going on the 3rd of June to USA..Oh man..Scared..I want my sis to come along but she cant..Well i hope i will enjoy myself there though..But going to miss my baby and my darling sister and all my friends alot..

Got to go already..Bye everyone..Love ya loads..Take care..Muacks..Big hug..

Lots of love,
Stressed Lala

Today..

Went out early today..Yesterday slept at 1 and woke up at 9..Phew..Super tired..Shaiful kept me company..He could not sleep also last night..Wanted to call my baby but called to say good night only cause i scared my mummy scold.Hehe..

Now me having a conversation with Nazirul and Sufian..They bully me..Baddie..But they are still my best friend..Big Hug..Hehe..I also chatting with Shaiful,my classmates and not to forget my darling Tasha..Hehe..

Today went to Orchard..Went to Wisma first,then to Lucky Plaza..Then to Takashimaya..Then to Matrina Square..Phew,,

Okies got to go already..Stupid brother want to use the com..Stupid ar he..


Lots of hugs and kisses,
Princess Aqilah

Results

Well modern dance got Bronze..Imagine that..Bronze..Ok ar...Quite happy actually..Better than COP..We put in our effort already..Since this is the results be it..I am not going to be sad but just proud of Modern Dance..Cause has you know..MODERN DANCE ROCKS!! Hehe..Nothing much happen today..Just did my oral..Blah2 and went home with him..

I now know that he loves me lots and i got the bestest friend a person could ever had..Her name is....Tasha..Yups..And definitely Amelea..They helped me alot and i am grateful for that..My darling also stayed with me cause i am sick and he could not go takraw as his daddy dont let him..Good..Hehe..Now me got to go sleep already..Later mummy will nag...


Good job Modern Dance people..We did our best okies..Whatever happens we will always be dancing yeah...Take care and cant wait till the next modern dance practice..Muacks...Love ya guys alot..

Lots of hugs and kisses,
Princess Aqilah :)

Sad and Happy..

Long time did not blog due to modern dance training always..Now just came home..


Well today finally we had our modern dance SYF..Woke up at 5..Reach school at 6..Did our make up all that..Reached the kallang theathrein time..It was scary though..Going up the stage..The bright lights..The judges..We were dancing ok..According to Farah..Our mistakes could not be seen...Quite happy that it is over..Today many schools was there..They were fantastic..But there is one school, the teacher is going around scolding my team mates..Stupid person..Well our costume is fabulous..Farah said that we were going to have a chalet..Yippee..Tomorrow is the results..All the tension is on us..We just have to wait..Enough about that..

Quarreling with him again..Haiz dont know what to do..Cried hard last night...Went to Amelea house as i could not stay at home any longer..Then today had headache the whole day.. But bear with it till now..And ya today is our anniversary..

I know i was late..Sorry...But you did not have to put down on me when you called me..Dont call better right..Sorry you had to wait long but it is not expected..The costume came in late and then the manager came..Up to you to do what you want..Well like my sis say you are always giving in to me..I am always in the wrong..Not cut out to be your girlfriend..If you had enough of me and given up on me please tell..

I am really stress i think..I have not been eating well..Did not have a proper meal till today..Always drinking only..Not been sleeping well either..Sleep either at 12 or 1 in the morning..So exhausted...Feel like breaking down..

Well this princess needs a break...Lotsa of it..To be prepared for Mid Year Examination...Or else...She will surely die..

And oh yeah..I am confirmed..Going to USA on the 2nd or 3rd June..Going to miss you guys alot..But will try to update the blog there..

Bye everyone..Take care..Got to go and rest...


Lotsa hugs and kisses,
PriNcesS AqiLah

Neoprint taken after SYF Modern Dance!! With my sexy babes and our pretty costume :)













Next time will post more pics yeah..Take care..

Pictures taken on 5th April on Amelea's Birthday






Me and Hidzir..



Me and Sexy Nurul




The hunks for the day.. :)



The babes for the day.. :)

Today

This whole week has been basically tiring..Modern dance on Monday and Tuesday..Getting our full costume on Monday...Everyday there is basically class test..On top of that i have to do this and that at home..Well to make it shorter i am feeling stress..

Today i did not want to go back with him basically i am scared that he will scold me..I dont know why...But i still went back with him..Quarelling with him..I dont know ar..Basically i dont know anything..I am lost,confused and feeling abit shitty now..I always get scolding from my family..i really2 dont need one from him..Haiz..Tomorrow is another day..I need to go for adventure thingy in school..Tired though..Got a really2 damn headache..I just feel like crying my heart out..Forget it..Dont want to go into details..


Tasha:Please dont do anything stupid..I dont want you to be sad or cutting your wrists cause of a girl..Be strong..You will always have me, amelea and all your other friends..Take care yeah..Love ya loads..Anything just feel free to approach me...

Got to go sleep or do something..Take care everyone..


Depressed Princess,
Aqilah Oreth

Sorry :'(

Well today school as per normal..Went to the interchange with him..Then took the 912 myself..All alone..

Today suppose to see him play soccer..Actually can..Then after that my mummy angry and she did not let me go..So i did not go and went to sleep..I am damn stupid i think..Haiz..That will be a long story..I just want to keep today entry short..

He is going tomorrow :'( He might not come school..Tomorrow is my speech day..We finish early..But i have to attend the speech day..Haiz..I dont want him to go..But i want him to go there and enjoy himself instead of thinking about me only..I want him to de-stress himself..So it is better if he go..

Take care yeah darling..Going to miss you alot..But i want you to know that i really love you alot okies..

Lots of love,
Princess lala

Closer look on my results..Not very well done..Did not focus enough..Especially english..Aiming to do better than this..

Lonely Day :'(

Me at home feeling lonely...

Thanks kak yana for telling me what is right and wrong..I dont know whether i making sacrifices or not..But you can see that i am not calling him no more..He does not have a hp..I can hardly talk to him..So the only time we talk is when we he sents me home..I dont want him to always sent me home all the way up..But only when we go up then we really talk..If not we hardly speak..

Since my mum told me not to go back with him i wont at all..Not trying to go against my mother..But why must he always just sent me down and go back..It is a waste of time right...I would rather want him to stay at home and rest..Not trying to ask pity or anything while saying this..It's been a long time since i went back alone..Today was like i sat in the bus with my darling Tasha..Ya..She kept me company..But when going up the lift and walking home alone..Felt like..Its been thousand of years since i walk home alone..It felt so different without him..

I miss him alot..Yes i do..He is sick..Hope he will recover fast enough..He will be out of town this Friday to Sunday..And me..I cant spent time with him also this next two days..Haiz...Got to go study or something like that..Take care yeah ppl..Especially the modern dance ppl..Dont you guys ever get sick for the next two weeks...


Lots of love,
Depressed Aqilah

Lost sheep....

Today i am like so freaking tired..Wait..I am always tired..

Well today had modern dance...As usual..Forever scolding and all that stuff..We might get our costume next week...Yeahs...You know what..My SYF is like two freaking weeks away and we are not even close to perfect...Haiz..I will put my full effort to the dance..I am so freaking tired..But i just have to do it..On the actual day that is on the 14..We have to be in school by 6..Imagine what time i have to wake up..Gosh.That is just super early..

Today tasha hurt her leg..Oh man..That stupid Shaun...Hate him..Whatever..Well darling..Take care of your leg okies..It will heal...Just need time to recover..Dont cry okies..

Just now...My mum called..She said he is always coming here..I guess my moronic bro told her..Haiz..I think i will not go back with him anymore..Haiz..I am making too many sacrifices i think..Haiz..Never mind..Whatever makes my mum happy..

Got to go sleep already..Got test also no mood to study..Bye..

Lots of hugs and kisses,
Princess Lala :'(

Missing him like mad..

Well today was ok..Woke up at 9 as my baby called..Then i called him back..Damn i miss him loads..He called when i having my lunch and told me that he was going to Melaka..Oh man..Going to miss him like mad..

Today we set out at 10.30..Went to Sembawang as my sis had to take pictures of flowers..And the place there has loads of Bungalows and i was like so freaking interested to see..All the bungalows there were nice execpt that it is not convinient..

Then after taking pictures we went to Suntec City..We ate there and went shopping..My sis and i was like talking about my trip to USA..She told me that she is freakingly going to miss me like hell when i am gone for 2 weeks..She wants to go out with me before i go together with a few friends..Like a farewell party... I am sad..I dont want to go..I am going to miss my sis and definitely my darling..And also my mummy..But the thing is that i want to travel..I want to feel what it is like to take the plane again..I want to see my new baby cousin..I want to shop there..I want to see the interesting places there..I want all this..That is why i have to sacrifice..Haiz..I am definitely gonna go..

My darling is going on the 1st April..I am so going to miss him..I dont know how long he will be gone but i hope it is not long..

Tomorrow is Princess Tasha's birthday..Well Happy Advanced Birthday darling...Sorry i write first cause i scared tomorrow i cannot use the com..Well just wanna wish you good luck in your life..And remember you are 15...But dont change..Cause i like the Tasha that i know now..I dont want any changes in her..Yups..That's all..

Well to my kor kor Leong Kiat..It does not matter that you failed your eng..You still have time to buck up..Now you sick..Take this opportunity to get lots of rest and dont think about anything..You can do it..I have faith in you..

I got to go already...Got to watch tv with my family..Till next time i blog..Take care people..

Lots of hugs and kisses,
Princess Aqilah

Today..

Well today was a terrible day..I was like super tired...I slept during geography and POA..I was not only tired..I was having headache throughout the day..Just now we had modern dance and i was like forcing myself to dance..I really did not have the mood..All the modern dance ppl know that i was scared of Boogeyman..Well just heard from Jolene that she is enjoying modern dance..Well glad to hear it as that is the only time where we are together and we will have loads of fun dancing..

Tomorrow is sports day..Yeah..No school..I am going to run..Haiz..Leg pain..Dont feel like running..But i guess no choice..Just run..

Today he sent me home..He was with me till 7.30..I went to the interchange late..Sorry baby... :) I miss you loads...

Got to go already..I want to go watch tv..Bye everybody..Love ya guys loads...Muacks..Nites..

Lots of hugs and kisses,
Princess Aqilah

Update

Well yesterday wanted to blog but my sis had to use the com.So now i am here on the com..

Yesterday was tiring..I went out at 2..Did my new ezlink card...Went to my grandma house around 3.30..Stayed there for awhile..Clean up and talk to her..She look so sick..Then after that we went to Orchard to buy ballon and sweets..Yup..We went to Party With Us at Centrepoint...That place is super cool..From there we went to my mother's workplace to put the ballon and then me and my sis went to Orchard again to meet up with Tasha..She bought a new Roxy Wallet..That is red and it cost her $39..But she was sad to part with her money..But it was her birthday money so what the heck..Once in a lifetime you celebrate your birthday..So you made a good choice Tasha Darling..Hehe..

On Thursday i went out with him..Yeah..We spent nearly the whole day together..We watched a stupid show that is Boogeyman..Damn it was scary..Half the time i had my eyes closed..Then we went to walk2 at Esplanade..Until around 7.45 with Sandral..We reached home around 8.45 and he and Abang Nazlie was outside my house till 10..I was so happy that i could spent time with him..But he hurt his back..He could not sleep on that day and no one was at home..

Now me at home..Thinking about him..Last night i hardly contact him and i dont know what is his condition now..Last night i could not really sleep thinking about him...How i wish he was here with me now...Just now he called me..But i never pick up..Shit me..What was i doing..Oh well...

Later i going out to Alya birthday party..She is the cutest thing on Earth..She is turning one..But it is just her party today..Her real birthday is on the 23rd..So happy advanced birthday Alya..

I got to go already..I miss him alot..Haiz..Bye..Take care..Enjoy your holidays..

Lots of hugs and kisses,
Princess Aqilah

Modern Dance

Today had modern dance and my whole body is like super pain...Then some more bumped into Hidzir..Today my group that is Tasha,Sulaztry,Elizabeth,Hidzir,Shaun and me was like super shit..We change so many things and our dance step is like whoa...Nice but there is lots of strecthing and my thigh and hand hurts alot..

Went home and i ate and then bath...I am like super tired but i slept for 10 mins..Now got headache..But i am going out later..

I miss him alot..I dont know what he is doing now..I dont know how is he..Haiz..I guess i have to think that he is ok..Just now Amelea and Tasha saw him..So i think he is ok...

Well i got to go get ready already..


And yah..Happy Birthday to Abang Raez,Leong Kor Kor and my darling Grandma..Best wishes to all of you..Take care..

Lots of hugs and kisses,
Princess Aqilah

Me and him

Me and Sis!!

Me at 4..

Me and Amy...Are we cute or what.. Hehe :)

My darling daddy and brother at a wedding!!

Friends Forever..Was at our friend BBQ...

Me and myself in my room!!

Today..

Well today had modern dance at 2...I woke up around 10..Felt tired though cause i think i slept at 2 talking to my darling..Hehe..

Finish modern dance at 5.10..Met him at interchange..Today was our anniversary..Hehe :)

Now just feeling tired and sleepy and my body hurts alot..

Holidays are just too boring..Got headache now..

Got to go already..Later daddy will scold..

Happy Anniversary Darling..Love ya lots..Take care of yourself okies..Muacks!

And oh ya..I envy my cousin..My mother bought for her Princess Wallet and Pencil Box..Argh!! I want also..Hehe..Save money i guess..

Lots of hugs and kisses,
Princess Aqilah

Next week plan..

Today went out with my parents and my darling went out with his friend...Nothing much happen..I was jogging at night with my cousin and my sister..My left leg hurts now but what the heck..It is always weak..I dont like..

Next week events are...
Monday-Modern Dance 2-5pm.. The rest of the day will be with my parents..
Tuesday-Modern Dance 8-11am..The rest of the day with be with my parents..
Wednesday-Cuzzie's Michelle Birthday at a rock climbing place..
Thursady-Go out with him..
Friday-Go to Nurul's house..
Saturday-Alya's birthday
Sunday-Family Day

Well that is all..And i cant meet him till we go out on Thursday..Well missing him like crazy..


Take care yeah people..Happy Holidays..

Hugs and Kisses,
Princess Aqilah

Common Test

Well the results are out..I failed my geography..I dont know my english.But i know that i did not do well..I got 36/40 for maths..13 for physics (i barely passed)..15/23 for social studies...18/25 for chemistry..40/50 for POA and 29/50 for malay..Well not very good huh...

My life is as normal..Still having my modern dance and guess what colour costume i am wearing?? PINK!! Hehe :) The costume is damn nice..I will be having my SYF on 14 April..Wish me good luck yeah! Hehe..

Sec 3 life is quite stressed up as the studies is harder..Hehe..Now everyday got headache and i am tired everyday...But my baby keeps me company..Thanks baby :)

Today had Sports Heat and i think i hurt my leg...It is damn painful..But i think i did ok...Hehe :)

Got to go already...Till next time i update take care ppl..Love ya loads!!

Lots of hugs and kisses,
Princess Aqilah

Tiring Day!!

I am so damn tired...Argh!!Got alot of thing roaming in my mind..Next week is my common test..I still have my modern dance training till SYF..I am dead...Totally...Feeling so stressed up..Above all that i am still thinking about him..I am so scared of losing him..But how i am to make sure that i dont lose him? Haiz so far today is quite ok..I studied well..I understood the chemistry lesson and i am proud of myself..

Today i went back with him..Quite glad actuall..I know he really loves me..Today modern dance was tiring..We were like bending and now my back really hurts..Yups but overall it was ok..Miss Tan was like pretty angry cause many ppl did not turn up and she wanted to kick some ppl out..But i hope she wont..

Well just beat my brother cause my mum like scold me..I am sorry Isaac..I dont mean too but i am tired..Please understand..

Got to go do my homework now..Till next time..Take good care of yourself..Common test is just next week..Play and study hard..Good luck!!

Lots of hugs and kisses,
Princess Aqilah

Bored!

Well today did not go school..Got a bad stomachache in the morning and now got a bad headache..

On friday had dance rehersal at Kallang theathre..It was ok..We had fun..We saw all the other group from our school dancing..There were nice..Especially the malay dance..We claped for them and they did the same for us..For the indian dance there were nice but they critisied us so we did not clap for them...I hurt my second last toe while dancing...It was bleeding..After the rehersal i,tasha and amy headed for causeway..We took neoprints..I was limping all the way cause my toe really hurts..Then i went back around 4.00..


On Saturday went out with my cuzzies..We went to Suntec city and ate at Sanur..High class place and we spent 75 over bucks..Just for lunch..For dinner we ate at a high class place also at Esplanade which we spent over 75 bucks also..The food was nice but i was heartbroken when the money was used..Hehe..At esplanade we took a boat ride..It was nice as we could see the scenery..I was thinking about him all the while when i was at the boat..At esplanade we walk around there..I and my sis saw lots of couples...It reminded me of him again..My second last toe is injured so i walked real slow..

Yesterday went to Escape theme park with my cuzzies..It was superd although my toe was injured and my cousin step on it..Altogether i had fun..My sis though was scared with most of the rides as we had not been there for a long time..Tried to call him a few times yesterday but his line was busy..In the afternoon and night..I dont really know what happent to the line but i was really fraustrated cause i call him till 11 hoping to get throgh but to no avil..Haiz..Dont want to talk about him...

Got to go already..

Lots of love and kisses,
Princess Aqilah

Valentine's day..

Well today was a very happy day for me..But i was tired..More information go to http://abdulandaqilah.blogspot.com I wrote the things there..Now to tired to wirte..


Till next time..HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!

Lots of love,
Princess Aqilah

Bbq

Well yesterday had bbq with Faezah,Anansa,Nisa,Abang Rahim,Abang Nazlie and my Abdul..And dont forget my darling Tasha..Tasha slept over at my house..Hehe..We slept around 2..We were dancing and talking crap..Hehe..But i was talking to Abdul more often..I miss her..I miss him..I miss everyone..It is a waste that My darling Amy and Nurul did not come..Kinda miss them lots..

Today i am going out i guess...Next whole week is going to be a tiring week..Everyday got modern dance practice..Then on Monday is Valentine's day and it is our 3rd month anniversary..Yippes...But i hope i wont look tired...I want to feel happy..

Till next time i blog yeahs..Take care people..Study hard for common test okies...

Lots of love,
Princess Aqilah

x. :) .x

Just came back..Accompanied the soccer boys eat..He hurt his leg today..And he scold loads of bad words..Haiz..Feeling kinda sick..Got sore throat..But i must remember to stay happy..Later my mum will scold...Just now Abang Nazlie ask me whether i was ok..I said ya..But the truth is the incident is still in my head..Was i too much last friday? I dont know..Questions that needs to be answered in my head..I know i have forgiven him..But why am i still thinking about it? I dont know..That is why..Actually i did not want to go school..But what will my mum say..So force myself..Tomorrow got modern dance..Dont have the energy to go..But again have to force..

:)

I got a good friend..Her name is Jazlyn..I love her lots..She help me alot..Hehe..She told me this
"heyys jush wna tell you dont let a guy take over you . . okies . . dont let them control your feelings . .((+ jush wna say this cause i dont wna other gurls to suffer in the hands of guys jush lyk me"..So sweet right..I love her lots..Thanks Jazlyn i will always remember you.. :)
Today had modern dance..But we were released earlier..Yesterday had modern dance and Shaun pants ripped off..Hehe.. :) He was so embarresed..But we had fun although got scolding from Farah..I am now having a sore throat..But i still drink coke..Hehe..Today did not go back with him but i miss him loads...I want to be with him always..Now i got to go as my daddy is nagging at me...

Till next time i blog..Bye ppl and i made a new blog for me and him..http://abdulandaqilah.blogspot.com/..Not complete but i hope it is nice..Bye!!

He did it again!!

Why must people do this to me??Did i do something bad in the past that is making me suffer..First happy now sad...What the hell...Tried to stay happy for the whole day and he said something which made me feel fucked up!!WHY WHY?!?!i dont know what to say already!!I am so sick and tired..Was so happy at the game and now at home feeling miserable..It is not that i dont love him..I do..Alot2..But..Haiz..Just want to be alone and cry now i guess..I miss him alot..But..I want to forgive him..But i cant bring myself to do it..He is going to repeat his mistake over and over again..I hope not..I dont know what to do now..Got a terrible headache..Nobody is here with me..I am feeling so lost and confused..I really2 dont know what to do!!

P.S Sorry for the bad words..But i just cant help it!!

****ed Up

I am so damn tired today and i am just feeling frustrated!! How can he forget to give his picture and remember to give his short to my sis?Why Why Why??Fine do whatever he wants to do..I just cant be bothered anymore..Why should i care about his picture...Although i want it but since he cant give me so just forget it...Why should i get angry all the time..I think he thinks i like doing this..But i am trying not to get angry..I think i am more dissapointed..I feel so tired!! I am sick and tired of my life and my everything..I am feeling damn stupid always going "Did you bring your picture?" And he will always reply "Oh I forgot." ok fine forget all the things for all i care!!!!! I feel tired!! I just want to breakdown and cry!!What the hell!! And most of my damn classmates dont want to stay back for awhile and do some fucking decorations to the class..What the hell..If later we win, they get the things also...Stupid fuckers in my class...I just hate everyone...Nobody is trying to make me happy..I am trying so hard to make other people happy but what about me???!!!!I guess everyone hates me..Is there something wrong with me??Can anyone tell me??Somebody please voice out if my attitude sucks or whatever shit!!


p.s Sorry for the vulgar language..But i just need to express myself..

Update!!

Argh!!Got bad headache!! Everything is moving around me when i am not moving...Argh!!Damn it..Well today never go school cause i was too tired...But i woke up early though..Dont know why..Well these few weeks has been quite tiring..Got modern dance..Then got swimming..Then got lots of homework that needs to be done..Feeling so stressed up..But i know i can cope with all these..
Having Problems with the Scandolls now..We are going to break up and just be normal friends i guess..Haiz..Dont know ar..I will just follow their decisions..I just cant think anymore..If i do i think i will breakdown..Haiz..But i really want us to be together..
Well I find my class quite ok..Sitting with Thinesh...He teaches me..Have good friends like Farhannah, Faezah & Anansa whom always help me also..And got Qing Xiu pau..And my Brother Leong Kiat..They are good enough..Going to enjoy with the class i think...

Well till next time i blog..Bye2..Take care..Muacks..

P.S Hope you like the new skin that i just did!!Tata everyone!!

Sick!ArgH!!

Well today school was tiring..But the worse thing is that i did not go back with him..Sad..

Today have lots of homework!!Argh!!dont know whether can finish..And the worse thing is that i have flu and my body hurts alot..Now just got message from my mum that my dad is on the way back home...Argh!!can my life get any worse? Ar..Whatever arx..Dont feel like doing anything right now..But i miss him and i cant call him..What the hell..That's why i want to go back with him..Haiz..

Got to go..Till next time...Take care people..

New Year & First Dae of school!

Well first of all Happy New Year..Haha..It is 2005..So fast..Well this new year is a great year to start afresh..Me? Just want to pass my exams..Do well in POA.. Thats all i guess i want to do for this new year..Haha..
Today was the first day of school..Boring..My class is like damn boring..The girls..Argh..Not many nice girls to hang around with..Haiz..forget it..Try to accept the class..Finish school at 1.45..Cool right..All my good friends are at 3/8..Unfair..Hope they will still remember me although i am in a different class..Well the teacher's are ok i guess..I think can bear with them..
Today suppose to go home with Abdul but did not..Did not communicate properly..He was like waiting for me in school and i thought he had Soccer..Then he waited for me..Poor thing..Just now called him..Tomorrow i think i am going back with him..Cause he wants to wait for me..

Well got to sleep..Tired already..Nitex..Till next time..Bye2..Take care people..