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ballet under the stars performance

so i finally did my performance.

my LAST performance with CHR MODERN DANCE.

and we all rocked that day with a great performance.

although some of us screwed up.

i know we did our best.

our effort paid off.

all those hard work and trainings we put in.

we did out best.

thanks to PELYN, DIYANAH, SAMANTHA NATASHA, KENZI, JOAN, JOLENE, CHRISTINA, XUE NI, SEAN, JANREZ, WILLIAN, BENSON and our instructor MR ADAM.

and a BIG thank you to MISS TAN for always being there and for the Macdonalds meal

(:

it has been nice.

being a part of CHR modern dance.

i love every time and effort i spend with my fellow dancemates.

we will be dancers forever!

All the best to you guys for next year ok.

next year will be an important year as you guys are having your SYF

bring the honour to our school by getting silver ok!

hehe.

well the night ended with a bad night.

my whole family and even nina and fana did not get to watch my performance.

firstly the stupid ticket said the performance starts at 7.30

which is suppose to be 6.30

secondly, the parking space is so difficult to find.

and you have to walk up so many stairs.

so in the end,

they could not see the performance.

daddy got angry.

my whole family was angry.

and therefore i cried cause they scold.

miss tan helped me called the person up.

stupid organizers.

ok then yesterday.

i went out.

we went to a party.

it was farah's birthday!

haha.

she turned 5 years old yesterday.

then went home.

today,

i am going out later.

now waiting for the rain to stop.

well that's all.

and pictures later!

hehe

(:

toodles all!

lala*

malay n' level oral

well shitness.

today was malay oral

it was ok.

but it was seriously tough.

glad that is over.

so i can announce...

MY N' LEVEL ORALS ARE SO O-V-E-RRRRRR!!!

yipeee!!

ok prelims starts next week.

but...

i am not prepared.

so shit..

this friday.

to those who wants to know.

I AM DANCING!

for BALLET UNDER THE STARS, at FORT CANNING.

those who wants to go must BOOK the TICKETS, at SISTIC.

the amount you have to pay is about $20 bucks.

the date is 28th July 2006!

ok.

but not forcing anyone.

i mean those who want to go,

and don't be late.

cause my performance is the opening performance.

so yeah.

i had to miss dance today cause of oral.

shitness.

all that nervousness made me tired.

therefore,

my mummy won't let me go.

i so have to catch up on wednesday.

someone help me.

i have not been having enough sleep.

and i am super tired.

friends have been like that.

everyone seems ok.

and i don't want hurt my friends again

so i shall just follow what they do.

and that makes me feel like a total loser.

which apparently i am.

after all that has happened.

i do have alot of friends.

but i don't feel like i have.

i am confused myself actually.

what a sore loser i am.

oh wells.

i just let the days pass.

and if i am without friends,

be it.

i am just thankful for those who have been there for me.

that is all.

oh well.

now i want to sink on the sofa and take a break while drinking root beer.

then off to studies.

toodles.

kisses.

love

lala*

fucked up day.

today is a bad day for me.

it just got worse.

first off,

in the morning.

i had no freaking school uniform,

bad morning!

haiz.

and i had to wear my sister's school uniform.

then came to school.

feeling glum.

talked to iena.

about the post she write.

she say it was not me.

then she say why i 'terasa'.

i felt so stupid

maybe i am.

so then it was recess.

i did not feel like going down.

or talking to anyone

so i stayed in class

then iena said " you angry with me ar?"

then i say "for what?"

then she say" cause i write about you in my blog."

i was hurt.

i felt the pain.

i am just a girl

i am not a good friend

i am a sucky one at that.

now i know

i am naggy like an old grandmother.

i hurt people feelings,

and I AM SORRY TO ALL THE PEOPLE I HAVE HURT.

i am truly sorry

:'(

SORRY TASHA.

SORRY IENA.

SORRY NINA.

SORRY NISA.

SORRY AMY.

SORRY FAEZAH.

SORRY ANANSA.

SORRY FANA.

SORRY NURUL.

SORRY TIARA.

SORRY KAK YANA.

i just feel i did something to you guys.

i am just stupid.

i am not worth being your friends or sister.

sorry if your feelings got hurt by me.

i am dumb.

then i had dance today,

i got distracted

i could not get my moves right

therefore,

blisters came out,

and scolding from mr adam.

i deserve it.

this post is like my day for today.

so much happened.

in just a day.

not trying to find sympathy.

well this is my life.

and iena is right.

i am not the only one having a miserable life.

now i realise.

iena did something for me.

she made me realise.

my life is a fake.

i am nothing but an irritant.

well aqilah

i hate you alot.

just go away.

you will be doing everyone a favour.

thanks.

thats alll.

toodles for now.

kisses.

lala*

update!

update time!

got to spend a few minutes out of my busy schedule.

study, dancing and more study.

i do spent time for myself.

but no more on the computer.

i want to do wel for my prelims.

my aim for next month.

and to be in the 'ballet under the stars' dance.

i want to dance and make it a good last performance.

well ok relax aqilah.

Iena never come today.

tasha also.

iena post makes me feel so guilty.

haiz.

am i naggy?

argh.

gosh i am stupid.

oh wells.

i want to eat.

i want to study.

i want to watch tv.

i want to do everything

but i dont have the time

so sucky huh?

yeah.

welcome to my sucky life.

well thats all.

i want to look for food.

toodles,

kisses.

whatev!

lala*

n level english oral

today i had n' level english oral.

it was damn scary i swear.

i was like freaking out when it was my turn.

kak azlyana and iena was taking the same day as me

(:

Iena is so mean!

school started at 9.30,

still NEVER go school.

*stares at iena angrily*

iena ar always never go school.

today i went back with iena.

and we actually drank 1 1/2 can of F & N

i nearly faint.

ahah.

but it was nicey!

my life has been a total disaster so far.

prelims are like in 24 days.

i am tired.

i have not been sleepin well actually.

i fear of everyday going to school and forgetting to do something.

hmm..

the feeling is definitely not nice.

well nothing exciting happened.

just the fact that i need a break.

so toodles!

kisses

lala*

life not good.

life is not so nice after school started.

my homework are piling.

orals for n levels are coming.

time passed just too fast for us to even notice.

this is not good.

next week monday i will be having my n level english oral.

gosh!

last week was mummy's birthday.

she turned 42

yeahness!

but i still love her nevertheless.

no matter how much she hates me.

hehe

(:

celebrated her birthday last saturday.

with daddy treating us to high tea.

at Scotts hotel.

yeahness

no pictures though.

no camera.

ahah

today is youth day holiday.

and speaking of that,

friday was great.

everyone wore something different.

some just look too weird.

others are unique,

i was told that i looked like teacher.

or someone going to work

-_-

so...

oh well.

ahah.

i took pictures,

but the camera battery is spoiled.

so cant load it.

sorry yeah.

ok.

thats all.

kinda boring actually.

for me.

ahah.

got nothing much to talk about also.

so toodles yeah!

lala*