hate my life

just go away lah.

what the fuck.

i know lah i am mean and everything.

i hate your son.

whatever lah.

do what you want to do.

pamper him.

do what he tells you to do.

he is 'SMALL'

and i am a big dummy.

i am stupid ok.

i scold your son always.

must talk to him 'NICELY'

he is a baby.

i shall go away silently lah

ISAAC IS EVERYTHING!

I AM JUST A PIECE OF SHIT!

from now on i shall not talk.

FUCK EVERYTHING!

update.

firstly sorry to shaiful.

i could go back with you.

but last minute cannot.

cause my mum called up and asked to go for lunch.

sorry.

sorry to bloggies.

i have not been updating.

especially kak maria!

love cha!

i have been caught up.

with mount kinabalu training.

and dance (:

i miss dancing so badly.

so mid year starts today.

the challenge also starts.

i have to pass my mid year.

i just have to.

ok relax.

i am so tired luh

:(

i miss this person.

but i dont know whether she misses me.

haiz.

oh wells.

damn stress already.

dont want to make myself more stress.

well just waiting for mid year to end.

the last paper is on the 11th may.

thank god.

yesterday was fun!

fana,nurul & iena was at my home.

i was studying together with fana and iena.

nurul was just watching tv.

ahah.

they went back around 7.30

only fana went back earlier.

then i and fana hid iena's and nurul's shoes.

mean

(:

they panick.

ahahaha.

embarrased.

ok i dont know what to say already.

wont be using the com always.

now i got to study ok people.

take care.

<3

kisses!

lala*

sorry.

hey to shaiful.

this is for you ar.

read this whole paragraph.

i am sorry.

real sorry.

i thought you were angry at me.

so you did not wait for me or reply my messages,

i am real sorry.

i never forget friends

evertime i want to go back with you i have something on.

i am sorry.

please dont angry with me and reply my messages.

when i am free i will go back with you.

now cannot

got alot of remedials and tests.

then my prelims are coming real soon.

hope you understand kk.

(:

today had mount k training again.

damn tired luh.

NAZIRUL NOT IN MY GROUP!!!!

argh.

then no one help me next time.

never mind ok nazirul

i still can bully you after training ahah.

he is so SWEET!

he sent me to outside my guardhouse.

(:

then he walk home himself.

so sad

):

during our walk home.

me,fana,raviin and him lah.

fana very funny!!

ahaha.

got cockroach on her shirt.

then she like screaming like mad like that.

it was disgusting.

really.

i also screamed!

funny right?

then as per normal our friend.

the raviin bully us.

ok thats all.

my legs were wobbling just now.

but now it is fine.

my right knee!

is weak man!

after the fall.

like how lame

and tomorrow have napha test!

yayness!

half day!

till 11.

then go meet auntie watch movie!

coolness!

(:

toodles everyone!

love cha loads!

muacks!

AND TIARA!
I HOPE YOU READ THIS!
I AM NO LONGER ANGRY WITH YOU!
YAYNESS!

AM SORRY!

yeah and my condolences to your mummy.

but you and sharen must be strong ok.

love cha!

lala*

only hope (:

There's a song that's inside of my soul

It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again

I'm awake in the infinite cold

But You sing to me over and over and over again

So I lay my head back down

And I lift my hands

and pray to be only Yours

I pray to be only Yours

I know now you're my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars

Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing

and laughing again

When it feels like my dreams are so far

Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again

So I lay my head back down

And I lift my hands and pray

To be only yoursI pray to be only yours

I know now you're my only hope

I give You my destiny

I'm giving You all of meI want Your symphony

Singing in all that I am

At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back

So I lay my head back down

And I lift my hands and pray

To be only yoursI pray to be only yours

I pray to be only yours

I know now you're my only hope

i love the song!!!

so kawaii neh!

by mandy moore.

A WALK TO REMEMBER!

ahah.

ok.

toodles!

kisses!

<3!

lala*

first mount kinabalu training

today had mount kinabalu training and boy it is tiring.
haha.
i think i was the slowest.
but thanks to Nazirul i was ok.
i mean i endured
THANKS NAZIRUL!
LOVE CHA MANY2!!!

haha.
we did circuits and staircase.

whoa.

suppose to do running actually.

but it was raining.

finished at 6.

went home with fana,nazirul,raviini and zul.

haha.

we laugh2.

so fun

now at home

tired

like duh.

so obvious

ahah.

tomorrow got physics test.

going to screw it again.

like i have not even touched my book.

lol.

ok am going to study.

toodles!

kisses!

<3s

lol.

as friend lah

(:

kawaii neh!

lala*

a walk to remember.

watching A Walk To Remember makes me think.

do we only think about fufiling all our wishes when we know we are going to die or when we need to?

watching the show a billion times will make me cry.

a billion times you know.

not exactly lah,

it is only my 3rd time.

ahah.

and i love the song mandy moore sang.

(:

somehow or rather the show is telling us something significant.

hmm..

talking about this also made me think about love.

sometimes i feel lonely.

sometimes i feel that i dont need boys.

i dont know how i mixed my feelings also.

like haiz...

so emotional...

i am watching DIA now.

and i am so sad that Dwi died.

seeing people dying is so sad.

but i am not afraid of dying.

cause i wont even blame god for me dying.

it is all fated right?

ok i know this post is boring.

i think so too..

but i just feel like writing it.

so bear it with me ok

(:

lala*

girlfight.

there's about to be a what?

GIRLFIGHT!

ahaha.

ok

i am mad.

like i am suppose to be sad.

like whatev!

ok let me tell you a story.

there once lived a girl.

named faezah and aqilah.

aqilah was close to faezah.

till one day faezah backstab aqilah.

faezah told bad things to people about aqilah.

and aqilah got to know.

aqilah was sad.

and did not talk to faezah.

then one day aqilah found out that faezah message aqilah's friend.

aqilah was quite angry.

then aqilah ask anansa to ask faezah whether it is the truth and anansa dont know what also she tell faezah.

then in between changing of periods faezah came to aqilah table and shouted at her.

aqilah was softhearted and did not say anything.

but then aqilah suddenly cried.

everyone came to aqilah's table.

but aqilah shoo them away.

aqilah dont like attention.

then school bell rang.

school was over.

faezah went to the canteen and started crying.

dont know for what also.

aqilah never scold also.

so aqilah cried again.

cause she is sure that faezah was talking bad about her.

then the next day...

faezah message aqilah.

say aqilah went around telling people about the problem.

but actually it was faezah herself.

cause she was crying.

so aqilah find it lame and heck care.

then faezah keep crying.

but no one cares eventually.

so aqilah also dont care.

aqilah dont blame anansa

but anansa should not say anyhow.

aqilah dont want to forgive faezah.

cause aqilah was shamed in front of the whole class.

and aqilah lived happily ever after with the others in 4/7 and her friends from 4/8 & 4/6

and her other friends lah.

those she know.

(:

-THE END-

haha.

now lala is back.

the story was great right.

it happened yesterday

haha.

ok and now i am happy.

cause i have friends and family to back me up.

and nasri.

i know you will read this.

am sorry also ok.

ok today had maths test.

FAILED IT!

cause i hardly do.

it was so difficult

haha.

have to study.

i am like so lazy.

and lala loves her sister!

please donte cry anymore.

i love you alot ok.

no matter what.

no matter how much we quarrel.

lala <3s>

tasha my darling breast friend.

think before making decisions ok.

haha.

love your breast (:

amelea my breast friend also.

thanks for standing up for me.

without you i dont know what to do.

haha.

and last but not least.

FARHANNAH!

thanks farhannah.

for always being there for me!

i love you all alot!!

thankiew.

ok this entry is long and i gtg watch NARNIA!

haha.

toodles everyone.

<3!

kisses!

lala*

me & sis (:

me and my stupid short hair....

my injured hand.but cant really see the cuts.

my damn injured leg.look at how ugly it looks.argh.am ugly already!

bored

hello people!

i am like suppose to be studying.

but what the heck.

let me blog first ok.

ok i went to sentosa on saturday.

i was injured.

so it was boring.

cant do much.

but i took pictures.

picture of my injured hand,

my injured leg,

and my freaking short hair.

update pics later.

sunday went out.

i dont know where also.

ahah.

then tasha got the phone that i wanted!

not fair!

6111 pink!

i want.

haha.

its ok tasha.

ahah.

love you breast friend.

ahah.

today was great.

i love fana,iena and nurul like doodles!

i miss farah!

we went over to nurul house.

to eat PIZZA!

first we had to make it.

woohoo.

so delicious.

then i had to leave early.

like not fair.

ok nasri is so making me sad.

not really ar.

actually i dont give a shit about boys.

i hate boys!

not all lah.

but still.

argh.

okok.

got to study.

tomorrow have test!

toodles everyone!

kisses!

<3!

lala*

injured.

i injured my knee today.

like i am suppose to help fana.

but i fell instead.

like how lame.

and thanks to nina i am ok.

she carried me to the sick bay.

thanks nina.

and iena and fana took care of me.

so sweet.

and kaartikgayan was so concern.

thanks guys!

breast tasha not in school again.

like everytime like that.

miss her like hell.

ok my knee hurts now.

it is quite bad you can say.

and my hang hurts.

got scratches.

i cant become a model cause the scratch might leave a scar.

so ugly.

ugly me

:'(

ok well tomorrow am going to Sentosa.

for picnic.

yeahness.

love everyone!

kisses!

lala*

today.

so effing depressed now.

am i that fierce?

i mean,

like if your younger brother would spit at you,

and you cant do anything.

wont you be angry.

and abang nazlie say i am fierce.

well Isaac i hate you.

cause you spit at me.

and you were rude to me.

kaarpish!

i passed my physics mock exam and chemistry mock exam.

yeahness to that.

but did not do well for physics.

but still passed.

so good enough.

today went to nurul house.

it was super fun.

together with iena and the 'atuk'(so cute)

they made me watch the last part of the final destination 3 and i am like still freaking out here.

like whoa.

that show is super scary.

not advisable to my tasha breast.

then we ate her father deliciously cooked beef noodles.

then the 'atuk' gave me sweets.

that i did not eat.

but brought it home to kak yana.

the 'atuk' so funny.

call me anak indian.

haha.

i think so

then nurul lay down so many blanket and we slept watching ICE PRINCESS.

then next on the movie was MEAN GIRLS!

haha.

so fun

and we ate nuggets and hotdog.

yummy.

then i bully iena.

so cute right.

(:

ok i guess that is all.

i have not done my malay homework.

shit.

cikgu omar is so going to school me if i dont hand it up.

but seriously i dont know what to write.

oh wells.

just write some shit up.

i miss farah.

i want to hug her.

to thank her.

ok then.

toodles.

till next time.

kisses!

<3!

lala*

I can go!

Hahahha.

guys i am head over heels now.

i am going crazy!

i can go mount K!!

yeahs!

cause we only need to pay 200 bucks!

like whoa!

just enought for my dad budget!

argh!

*screams*

*pulls hair*

It is during the June holidays

7-11 June.

Hahahaahahahah

today i played in the rain with tasha and amy!

coolness.

its been a long time since i played in the rain!

ahah.

and i am going Mount Kinabalu!

everybody scream!

hehe.

tomorrow is amy's birthday!

tomorrow got modern dance!

argh!

haha

i am so cold now.

haha

tralalala.

i miss tasha breast!

<3!

<3!

i miss Mastura!

I miss Kaiyisah!

I miss Quraishia!

I miss everyone!

haha.

i am mad.

sorry

so i shall not go on.

or the post will go crazy.

hahahaaha.

i am going Mount K.

toodles everyone

<3!

hahahahaha.

lala*

Happy birthday celeste!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CELESTE CHEN PING!!!!

SWEET 16!

woohoo!

Love you breast.

sorry could not attend to your party.

but still love you lah.

haha.

Well hmm...

yesterday had library service.

so freaking boring.

then went home and enjoyed with MASTURA!

(:

hehe.

i straightened her hair.

and she was like so excited.

weird girl.

but fun.

haha.

and i did her nails for her.

then yesterday had religious class.

on thursday had sports day.

i ran for 4 x100

i got third.

just for running one event.

like super cool

(:

took pictures.

with pastor tasha,mas and kak yana.

nice.

will try to update later.

well thats all really.

you know what.

i start to think about boys again.

i mean i miss holding hands.

hugging.

lalaing.

everything.

but what the heck

i will try to forget about that thinking.

somehow or rather i am feeling so alone.

but never mind.

got iena,kaiyisah,shaiful,fana,faezah,anansa

and my pastor tasha.

and not to forget mastura.

all of them are enough already.

okok

i hope i can go Mount K this year,

if the cost is not to high

my daddy will let me go.

yeahness to that.

Yun is going

(:

hehe.

ok lame.

well this time he has his friends.

so what the hell.

ok thats all for now.

am going to bed.

super tired!

toodles!

kisses!

<3!

lala*