I dont know what i am thinking anymore. I dont want to think anymore about unwanted stuffs. I cant take anymore. My studies. I am trying my so very best. That it hurts me you can say.
So the other things i am refering to well is my other social things. Cant really detailed it cause i got no strength. All my strength is gone. I am so weak that i can barely do anything. I am feeling sad. But i dont know why. So sad. My stomach has been weak lately. So i barely eat. Eat abit here and there. Ok. I dont want to write no more. I am too sad. Quarrel with him.
My exams are just around the corner. May god bless me. May it help me with my studies. But i must help myself. Well really trying real hard. I want to pass. Now i dont have confidence. So stressed and i haven even wash the dishes. Shit lah.
lala *
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
Sunday, September 18, 2005
SentoSa!
Tralalala. hehe. Back from SentoSa. I slept overnight there at Shangri-La's Rasa SentoSa ResoRt. Whee. Hotel. A Singaporean staying in Singapore hotel. Haha. What to do? Malaysia now corrupted like hell. People killing here and there. Robbing here and there. Rapping here and there. The place is a nightmare. Now want to go also must wear like apek and nonya. Ok stop here. I want to talk about SentoSa tRip.
Well we checked in around 2 noon. With the help ok Kak Shirin driving the car over. If not i think we will reach later. Haha. Well went to put the things all. Then went to eat at Burger King. Then went back to the hotel rest. Then went to Fort SiloSo. Then went to the SiloSo beach. Then went Swimming. Then went back to the hotel change. Then went to Musical Fountain. Then went to the hotel cafe to eat dinner. Then went back to sleep.That was for yesterday.
Today woke up at 8. Went for complimentary breakfast at the hotel cafe. Then we straight away went to the arcade. Haha. Played there awhile. Then to the pool table. Where i played pool for the first time against my sis and i won. Whee! Luck i guess. haha. Then from there we went to back to the room to freshen up. We checked out around 11.30. Went out of Sentosa then went to Suntec City do shopping abit. Then back to home sweet home. Tired. Went to clean all that. Now i am blogging.
Got to go sleep for tomorrow. Goodnight everyone.
butterfly kisses *
Lala
Well we checked in around 2 noon. With the help ok Kak Shirin driving the car over. If not i think we will reach later. Haha. Well went to put the things all. Then went to eat at Burger King. Then went back to the hotel rest. Then went to Fort SiloSo. Then went to the SiloSo beach. Then went Swimming. Then went back to the hotel change. Then went to Musical Fountain. Then went to the hotel cafe to eat dinner. Then went back to sleep.That was for yesterday.
Today woke up at 8. Went for complimentary breakfast at the hotel cafe. Then we straight away went to the arcade. Haha. Played there awhile. Then to the pool table. Where i played pool for the first time against my sis and i won. Whee! Luck i guess. haha. Then from there we went to back to the room to freshen up. We checked out around 11.30. Went out of Sentosa then went to Suntec City do shopping abit. Then back to home sweet home. Tired. Went to clean all that. Now i am blogging.
Got to go sleep for tomorrow. Goodnight everyone.
butterfly kisses *
Lala
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
-Many happy happenings.
Well first of all HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KENZI ONG and my classmate JANICE LIM. One has turn 13 and the other 15. Well wish them all the best only. Take care.
Then today is my ten month anniversary. Happy 10th month anniversary baby. I love you loads. Muacks! I am glad that we are still together. And i want to be with you forever and ever. I want to marry you and i want to have your kids. I cant wait for my 1 year anniversary. I am sorry i cant spent time with you. I am really sorry. I feel so bad. But i just want you to know that i love you alot. I can only spent more time with you after the end of year exams. That is when i wont have to worry on alot of things. I am sorry that i caused you alot of sadness and misery to your life.. Just sorry. Well i dont know what to say anymore. I got to go.
I love my family. Alot. All of them has sacrificed for me. They even shed tears for me. I am truely grateful. Thank you.
I got to go. Till next time i blog. Goodbye. Take care.
butterfly kisses *
Aqilah Oreth
Then today is my ten month anniversary. Happy 10th month anniversary baby. I love you loads. Muacks! I am glad that we are still together. And i want to be with you forever and ever. I want to marry you and i want to have your kids. I cant wait for my 1 year anniversary. I am sorry i cant spent time with you. I am really sorry. I feel so bad. But i just want you to know that i love you alot. I can only spent more time with you after the end of year exams. That is when i wont have to worry on alot of things. I am sorry that i caused you alot of sadness and misery to your life.. Just sorry. Well i dont know what to say anymore. I got to go.
I love my family. Alot. All of them has sacrificed for me. They even shed tears for me. I am truely grateful. Thank you.
I got to go. Till next time i blog. Goodbye. Take care.
butterfly kisses *
Aqilah Oreth
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
....
The world is upside down now. Does anyone feel the same thing that i am feeling? The feeling of pain and just pure shit.
Ever heard of a younger brother calling you an idiot? Well mine does. My brother at the age of 8 whom controls my mum, sis and me. Seriously the world is upside down already. He is always asking for the damn toys. Which some he plays while and throw it away once he get bored of it. People says he is a young boy. Just eight. Well this stupid boy must be damn bloody stupid to me. He is not young to me. He surely have common sense. Unless he is so stupid. Have a pea brain. Then i accept. Maybe he is? Well what the fcuk. He is an ass to me. Someone whom i hate alot. Someone who does not need my respect. Someone rude.
Today i went to Malaysia. Went to do my baju raya. Abit too early huh? But better be early then late. Since we got the materials already. Went to look for the tailor was difficult. They shifted. And the weather was like freaking hot. Then we saw the place. But went to eat first at City. The we are me,mummy,sis and Sandral. So glad my brother was not there. Ok come back. After eating, went to look for the tailor. Found it at a small shopping mall. Did the measurement and stuffs. Then went off back to City Square. There went shopping. It was fun. Sandral bought a roxy wallet,skirt and shorts. Mummy bought pants. Sis bought skirt and i got myself a long pants. We were shopping like mad. Spent alot of money also. But it was quite cheap. I think Sandral was happy. So were we.
Then we went home. Took the bus. Sandral came to my house. Mummy went to work. Then Abdul came. That is when my brother made trouble. He called me an idiot. That was why i got angry. I called my mum. Told him he was at my house. Then she gave me 10 mins. Tell me what can you do with your boyfriend for 10 damn minutes. Practically nothing.
He went home. I knew he was sad. From the look of his face. I just feel so damn freaking bad. I am the meanest girl in the world. Each time i have to tell him to leave. He came all the way. Then he go home. He was so freaking sad. Now i dont know what to do no more. I miss him alot. And it is alot. We dont spend time together. We never go out also. Haiz. No one knows what i am feeling inside.
That is all i did today. I will be loving him always. Muacks.I love you Abdul!!
pRinceSs lala :'(
Ever heard of a younger brother calling you an idiot? Well mine does. My brother at the age of 8 whom controls my mum, sis and me. Seriously the world is upside down already. He is always asking for the damn toys. Which some he plays while and throw it away once he get bored of it. People says he is a young boy. Just eight. Well this stupid boy must be damn bloody stupid to me. He is not young to me. He surely have common sense. Unless he is so stupid. Have a pea brain. Then i accept. Maybe he is? Well what the fcuk. He is an ass to me. Someone whom i hate alot. Someone who does not need my respect. Someone rude.
Today i went to Malaysia. Went to do my baju raya. Abit too early huh? But better be early then late. Since we got the materials already. Went to look for the tailor was difficult. They shifted. And the weather was like freaking hot. Then we saw the place. But went to eat first at City. The we are me,mummy,sis and Sandral. So glad my brother was not there. Ok come back. After eating, went to look for the tailor. Found it at a small shopping mall. Did the measurement and stuffs. Then went off back to City Square. There went shopping. It was fun. Sandral bought a roxy wallet,skirt and shorts. Mummy bought pants. Sis bought skirt and i got myself a long pants. We were shopping like mad. Spent alot of money also. But it was quite cheap. I think Sandral was happy. So were we.
Then we went home. Took the bus. Sandral came to my house. Mummy went to work. Then Abdul came. That is when my brother made trouble. He called me an idiot. That was why i got angry. I called my mum. Told him he was at my house. Then she gave me 10 mins. Tell me what can you do with your boyfriend for 10 damn minutes. Practically nothing.
He went home. I knew he was sad. From the look of his face. I just feel so damn freaking bad. I am the meanest girl in the world. Each time i have to tell him to leave. He came all the way. Then he go home. He was so freaking sad. Now i dont know what to do no more. I miss him alot. And it is alot. We dont spend time together. We never go out also. Haiz. No one knows what i am feeling inside.
That is all i did today. I will be loving him always. Muacks.I love you Abdul!!
pRinceSs lala :'(
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
Life for me this days?
Well trying to be happy. But everyday just turns out to be a i dont know how to describe. this is just so fraustrating. I am so sad.
Today i am quite tired you can say. Woke up at 5.45 to go to school. Had belumut training from 7.30-8.30. Ran 5 rounds the death track[the track outside CHR where we use to run now]. Then finished i went to Banquet. With amelea and tasha. We ate. Then my baby come and fetch me go school. Then i actually lost my hp. I left it at Banquet. A kind man helped me to keep. Then my baby called the man. Then we went to take the hp. The man actually went to call my daddy. Who is at Batam. Gosh. There goes my prepaid. Then modern dance was for 2 long hours. With Adam. Pain. Then Miss Tan treat us KFC. So nice. Then i went home. Planned to sleep. But then i went swimming instead. Then met up with Abdul. Talk to him awhile. Then i have to pick up my stupid irritaing no respect for elders brother. This is just so fraustrating. I had to wait fo rthe bus for half an hour. Stupid bus. Moron. Then go there see my asshole bro buy toys. Then left. What a waste of time. So shit. Now here blogging away.
People do love me. People like Abdul, Nasriah and Amelea and Tasha. I so love them. Thanks. Alot of thanks. And to my other friend. Just thank you alot.
I dont know what is happening in my life. Just have to figure out i guess. Well i am so tired right now.
I am sorry baby. I have been creating problems for you one after another.One after another. Making you sad everyday. Haiz. I am stupid. I am sorry. I am sorry. I am sorry.
pRinceSs Lala :'(
Today i am quite tired you can say. Woke up at 5.45 to go to school. Had belumut training from 7.30-8.30. Ran 5 rounds the death track[the track outside CHR where we use to run now]. Then finished i went to Banquet. With amelea and tasha. We ate. Then my baby come and fetch me go school. Then i actually lost my hp. I left it at Banquet. A kind man helped me to keep. Then my baby called the man. Then we went to take the hp. The man actually went to call my daddy. Who is at Batam. Gosh. There goes my prepaid. Then modern dance was for 2 long hours. With Adam. Pain. Then Miss Tan treat us KFC. So nice. Then i went home. Planned to sleep. But then i went swimming instead. Then met up with Abdul. Talk to him awhile. Then i have to pick up my stupid irritaing no respect for elders brother. This is just so fraustrating. I had to wait fo rthe bus for half an hour. Stupid bus. Moron. Then go there see my asshole bro buy toys. Then left. What a waste of time. So shit. Now here blogging away.
People do love me. People like Abdul, Nasriah and Amelea and Tasha. I so love them. Thanks. Alot of thanks. And to my other friend. Just thank you alot.
I dont know what is happening in my life. Just have to figure out i guess. Well i am so tired right now.
I am sorry baby. I have been creating problems for you one after another.One after another. Making you sad everyday. Haiz. I am stupid. I am sorry. I am sorry. I am sorry.
pRinceSs Lala :'(
Saturday, September 03, 2005
SorRy
I am sorry. I am sorry. I dont know what to do anymore. You are not useless. Dont say like that. You are not useless. I love you alot. I was stupid to say that. Sorry. Sorry :'( Sorry. Sorry. I am sorry. Sorry. You are not the useless one. I am.Sorry. sorry :'(
Sorry. Sorry :'(
I love you alot2. I love you.Really :'(
Sorry. Sorry :'(
I love you alot2. I love you.Really :'(
Friday, September 02, 2005
A little of disappointment and alot of sadness
Sometimes i just feel like giving up. I did not do well for my exams. It is atrocious. The results i get shows the me. The real me is a fucking girl with a low IQ. I wanted to give up. My friends told me not to. So i wont. I fail three subjects. This whole year i never failed. This is to sad. I wont give up though.
I failed my Social Studies,Physics and POA. This is too much for me to handle. I may look happy. But sometimes i feel like breaking down to cry all the way. People have given me advices. I am thankful. Thanks. But this does not change anything. I am still so sad. Iwant to die. I feel like slitting my wrist. With a blade. This is so shit. I am shit. Everyone hates me. I just want to kill myself. Maybe a slow death is great.
I want to die. I want to die. I want to die. I want to die. I want to die. I want to die.I want to kill myself. I want to die. I want to kill myself. I dont want to live anymore. I am so stress. Argh!!!!
Aqilah Oreth
I failed my Social Studies,Physics and POA. This is too much for me to handle. I may look happy. But sometimes i feel like breaking down to cry all the way. People have given me advices. I am thankful. Thanks. But this does not change anything. I am still so sad. Iwant to die. I feel like slitting my wrist. With a blade. This is so shit. I am shit. Everyone hates me. I just want to kill myself. Maybe a slow death is great.
I want to die. I want to die. I want to die. I want to die. I want to die. I want to die.I want to kill myself. I want to die. I want to kill myself. I dont want to live anymore. I am so stress. Argh!!!!
Aqilah Oreth
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