merry x'mas

hey wells so it is christmas day today.

different from last year

this year is more quiet

my cousins are out of town.

and i am like so totally bored.

kinda have a headache now

so shit.

its ok.

ella,fiq and my neighbours are here now.

havoc the house.

haha.

well they make me happy and that is good.

just now i did not went swimming.

but i went down

then all of them pulled me to the pool

kak yana also did not go swimming.

but ended up getting wet.

hehe.

oh wells

now i want to think about my new year's resolution

cause it is like 6 more days till the new year.

so fast huh

and next year i am taking my n'level.

so the first resolution is to pass my n'level and hopefully get 5 points.

ok i am getting bored of typing already.

toodles.

and MERRY X'MAS EVERYONE!!!

love,

lala

today

ok i am like so bored.

i want to go out with my friends and just be crazy for one day.

haiz.

i will die staying at home.

today we are having a small children christmas party.

cause the older people had one.

hope it will be great cause i helped to cook nasi lemak.

and i wasted alot of money on buying presents.

actually not waste.

cause i like buying presents.

i hate guys.

they just dont understand me.

i know i am being selfish for not opening my heart again

but that is who i am.

my heart is still broken and how i wish it will heal again.

it needs time to heal.

haiz.

i just need to be alone.

thanks tasha.

i just miss this crazy girl.

miss bullying her and talking craps with her.

i read your blog and it is super sweet.

i love you too tasha.

oh wells she is the best.

well i got to go.

get ready to party everyone.

cant wait till christmas and a brand new year.

i am taking my n's next year and i want to do well.

so less com time and tv time for me.

goodbye tv and com.

wait it is not 2006 yet

ok i will stop my crap.

toodles.

p/s 4 more days till chritmas.cant wait.

love,

lala*

life is shit.

here i am feeling miserable and he is out there playing pool.

haiz.

maybe he is happy going to ITE

then i should be happy and forget him and wish him all the best.

being with him for nearly a year makes it abit difficult to forget him

and it hurts just trying to forget him

i got a sore throat.

i am coughing.

i think i am getting a fever.

i dont know.

thanks nashri for caring about me.

but dont go to the extend then you cant sleep cause of me ok.

thanks haizal for messaging me every night.

sorry i cant reply.

cause my prepaid low.

thanks nazi for chatting with me last night.

all these are boys huh.

ya.

well just to let you guys know.

dont fall in love with me.

i am nothing compared to other girls.

ok.

i am sorry.

tasha boyfriend failed also.

and she cried.

she thinks its her fault.

well tasha although he is my ex.

i feel the same way.

i got to clean the house.

he is going to town now.

well hope you are happy.

love,

lala *

results.

today is the day where all the n'level get their results.
well i am super happy and proud for my sister.
this is the first time she passed all.
including her maths.
thumbs up sis.
i know you can do it.
i am super proud to be your sister
(:
abang nazlie passed
i am so glad.
shan and sandral passed.
ok congratulations.
cant wait to meet you guys next year.

ok the post sounds boring.
not really boring but sad
well i am sad
and disappointed.
abdul failed
he FAILED!
i am so sad.
heart broken to many pieces.
i cried in the car.
for the first time.
i just feel like it is my fault.
well i cant accept him back now.
i am so sad.

i cant type anymore
i am going to cry
the day is spoiled.
haiz.

toodles.
:'(

lala*

my life

ok so i am coping.

trying to forget love,

trying to be happy.

and people are helping me.

on the 14 december 05.

i was super happy.

tasha,iena,quraisah,kaiyisah was at my house.

we went swimming.

we were gossiping about people first before swimming.

ha!

we ate like pigs.

i am getting darker i think.

haha.

oh wells yesterday was sad at night.

abdul mum messaged me.

dont want to go into details.

ask me if you want to find out!

there is someone sleeping over tonight.

Yeahs!

nur farella know as ella is slepping over.

we are so going to sleep late.

ha!

cant wait.

well i this sunday am collecting 3oo bucks.

it is edusave scholorship.

i got top 10%

woohoo!

money here i come.

then next year i am collecting 150 bucks!

for EAGLES award.

i am getting rich.

hehe.

(:

ok cant brag much.

i cant wait for 27 december also.

i have auditions for next year danceworks.

i hope i get in.

i am praying to get in.

well if i am not good enough then ok.

thats all for now i think

and oh ya.

thanks haizal for trying to make me happy.

i appriciate it.

ok my hands hurt.

Toodles!

lala*

love

its been a long time since i talk about love in this blog.

well what is love to me.

love is nothing to me anymore.

i know that you have to love to be loved in return.

i dont know.

i dont hate abdul.

but he is making me hate him

i dont want to accept any boy.

i know i am just saying this.

but i am just tired.

very.

its too painful.

i wish that there is at least one guy that i can love for the rest of my life.

all things have changed since abdul came and went out of my life.

i dont know me anymore.

the aqilah that was once cheery is gone.

she just cant breathe anymore.

i just want to stick to loving my family.

i guess that is enough for me.

maybe i will just admire the guys.

admire those who are in love.

just admire.

thats all i got to say about love.

practically nothing but crap.

but i am happy that all that was out.

toodles.

lala*

This pictures are not arranged to date (:


Surprise Birthday party on 041205 at Orchid Country Club.


My lovely family after the party at the hotel.


My pressies (:


My princess ballon bought by my mum. It even has my name (:


My friends were there too.Whee!


Me cutting my most favourite cake.


My favourite cake! Thanks mummy (:


Overdue pics!



Pelyn,sis and me. We kissed after the performance.We are not les ok.


CHR modern dance 2005



Mummy,nana & lala going out to raya.Woohoo!


Our art work during the art camp 2005. Isn't it beautiful (:


The so called artists.
From left,me,syazannah,nasriah,miss sharifah,nina,hidzir,nazirul.



Thats all for now (:

birthday (:

On Sunday 4 December.

The happiest day of my life.

There was a suprise party to celebrate me turning 15.

All planned by my loving family.

Thanks alot.

Thanks to the people who were there and helped.

Thanks to my parents and siblings.

Thank you everyone.

(:

Those who cant make it or was not invited.

Your messages were more then enough to brighten up my day.

Thanks.

I got lots of presents this year.

After so long.

I think this is the best party i had.

Everyone wore pink and white.

I had a princess ballon.

I am so happy.

Yesterday was 5 December.

My birthday.

I am now a year older.

It feels great.

I went out with my family.

My mummy bought a new hp.

So cool.

We went Swensens to eat.

My daddy paid.

Then i went to topshop to buy one shirt.

Thanks to Kak linda & hubby and Kak Nadiayah.

They gave me some sort of a topshop voucher.

Then we went home.

So that is what i did for my birthday.

Exciting huh.

Oh ya.

The suprise birthday was at Orchid Country Club.

Cool place.

Thanks Kak Yanti.

She worked there.

So we even got to sleep over there.

The rooms were huge.

Ok lah.

I stop here for now.

I am 15 already.

Going to make my ic soon

(:

toodles everyone!

lala*