He did it again!!

Why must people do this to me??Did i do something bad in the past that is making me suffer..First happy now sad...What the hell...Tried to stay happy for the whole day and he said something which made me feel fucked up!!WHY WHY?!?!i dont know what to say already!!I am so sick and tired..Was so happy at the game and now at home feeling miserable..It is not that i dont love him..I do..Alot2..But..Haiz..Just want to be alone and cry now i guess..I miss him alot..But..I want to forgive him..But i cant bring myself to do it..He is going to repeat his mistake over and over again..I hope not..I dont know what to do now..Got a terrible headache..Nobody is here with me..I am feeling so lost and confused..I really2 dont know what to do!!

P.S Sorry for the bad words..But i just cant help it!!

****ed Up

I am so damn tired today and i am just feeling frustrated!! How can he forget to give his picture and remember to give his short to my sis?Why Why Why??Fine do whatever he wants to do..I just cant be bothered anymore..Why should i care about his picture...Although i want it but since he cant give me so just forget it...Why should i get angry all the time..I think he thinks i like doing this..But i am trying not to get angry..I think i am more dissapointed..I feel so tired!! I am sick and tired of my life and my everything..I am feeling damn stupid always going "Did you bring your picture?" And he will always reply "Oh I forgot." ok fine forget all the things for all i care!!!!! I feel tired!! I just want to breakdown and cry!!What the hell!! And most of my damn classmates dont want to stay back for awhile and do some fucking decorations to the class..What the hell..If later we win, they get the things also...Stupid fuckers in my class...I just hate everyone...Nobody is trying to make me happy..I am trying so hard to make other people happy but what about me???!!!!I guess everyone hates me..Is there something wrong with me??Can anyone tell me??Somebody please voice out if my attitude sucks or whatever shit!!


p.s Sorry for the vulgar language..But i just need to express myself..

Update!!

Argh!!Got bad headache!! Everything is moving around me when i am not moving...Argh!!Damn it..Well today never go school cause i was too tired...But i woke up early though..Dont know why..Well these few weeks has been quite tiring..Got modern dance..Then got swimming..Then got lots of homework that needs to be done..Feeling so stressed up..But i know i can cope with all these..
Having Problems with the Scandolls now..We are going to break up and just be normal friends i guess..Haiz..Dont know ar..I will just follow their decisions..I just cant think anymore..If i do i think i will breakdown..Haiz..But i really want us to be together..
Well I find my class quite ok..Sitting with Thinesh...He teaches me..Have good friends like Farhannah, Faezah & Anansa whom always help me also..And got Qing Xiu pau..And my Brother Leong Kiat..They are good enough..Going to enjoy with the class i think...

Well till next time i blog..Bye2..Take care..Muacks..

P.S Hope you like the new skin that i just did!!Tata everyone!!

Sick!ArgH!!

Well today school was tiring..But the worse thing is that i did not go back with him..Sad..

Today have lots of homework!!Argh!!dont know whether can finish..And the worse thing is that i have flu and my body hurts alot..Now just got message from my mum that my dad is on the way back home...Argh!!can my life get any worse? Ar..Whatever arx..Dont feel like doing anything right now..But i miss him and i cant call him..What the hell..That's why i want to go back with him..Haiz..

Got to go..Till next time...Take care people..

New Year & First Dae of school!

Well first of all Happy New Year..Haha..It is 2005..So fast..Well this new year is a great year to start afresh..Me? Just want to pass my exams..Do well in POA.. Thats all i guess i want to do for this new year..Haha..
Today was the first day of school..Boring..My class is like damn boring..The girls..Argh..Not many nice girls to hang around with..Haiz..forget it..Try to accept the class..Finish school at 1.45..Cool right..All my good friends are at 3/8..Unfair..Hope they will still remember me although i am in a different class..Well the teacher's are ok i guess..I think can bear with them..
Today suppose to go home with Abdul but did not..Did not communicate properly..He was like waiting for me in school and i thought he had Soccer..Then he waited for me..Poor thing..Just now called him..Tomorrow i think i am going back with him..Cause he wants to wait for me..

Well got to sleep..Tired already..Nitex..Till next time..Bye2..Take care people..