some photos

all my nice pictures!


modern dance danceworks2006 and some other extra photos.

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another week gone.

another day passed.

soon before i even know it.

I will be taking N'levels.

Haiz.

I am so like bored with my life.

everyday without fail,

something happens.

this is even worst.

guys.

i know it hurts being rejected.

but you think it was easy to have rejected you guys?

why do you do stupid stuffs for me.

i would rather you hate me.

dont bother about me.

i'll be fine.

ok talk about my studies now.

i did so well for my maths and chemistry.

guess how much.

i got 15 out of 16 for maths

and 17 out of 20.

so happy for me.

ok thats all

the rest of the test all i just pass.

so yeah.

next week have alot of tests.

and when term 2 have alot of mock exam.

so sian

alot of homwork now.

and i hate my gregory loh!

oh whatever his name is.

but i will study geography on my own accord.

ok i want to go now.

toodles everyone.

oh ya.

somtimes there is a problem with the tagboard.

it takes awhile to upload.

so just wait ok.

thanks

lala*

sorry ok. haiz...

I hope you read this.

Sorry Nashri.

You can hate me or whatever.

But dont need to until write like that or do stuffs like that right?

how do you think i am feeling now after reading your blog.

You think that you are the only guy i rejected.

I know i am a bitch.

A slut.

Whatever it is lah.

I dont give a fucking damn about my fucking life already.

I am just so hurt you said like that.

Haiz.

Of all the things i thought love was the greatest thing on earth.

but looks like i am wrong.

I am so thankful that you still take me as your friend.

But you doing this.

I guess i would rather you hate me.

Then to say like that.

Everyone thinks about themselves.

How about me?

I am fucking trying hard not to make boys feel rejected and this is what i get in return.

Pure shitness.

I am sorry ok boys.

I dont expect you to love me or whatever.

I dont ok.

You gus can just leave me alone for heaven's sake.

Just leave me.

:'(

donttt commmeee backkk.

*cries*

lala*

\.heart shatters./

carnival

Carnival was fun.

But damn tiring.

I had duty for two days.

met alot of people.

Our stall was jam packed with people.

Not really expected but what the hell.

Want to write to this particular girl.

But dont want to name.

Hello this girl.

Can you wake up to reality!

that's all i want to say.

The rest i shall just keep it to myself.

On last friday i went out.

With Shan,Sandral,Amos,Kak Yana and Abang Nazliee.

Haha.

Last part was boring.

Dont know why Kak Yana was angry.

Then abang nazlie bought for her ballon.

sweet (:

Amos treat me for the movie.

He wanted to buy food for me also.

But i paid.

I dont feel comfortable asking people to pay my stuffs.

(:

today school was boring.

my teacher all tired to teach also.

we also too tired to study.

Oh ya.

Its official!

in school my name will be Aqilah Oreth Bte Zuhayr Abdullah.

I know its lame for me to be excited but i always scared to add my Oreth.

Cause it is not official.

Haha.

Now it is!

Woohoo!

ok i gtg.

Today got DIA (:

Toodles everyone!

kisses!

lala*

Photos!

happy valentine's dae!

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!

Haha (:

I got presents.

From friends!

I got cookies from nisa,biscuits from tasha,chocolate from Shaiful and Erin!

Oh ya a butterfly anklet that i wanted so badly from TEO HUI SHAN!!!

i love her oh so much.

and a flower and hug from Janrez.

He is the cutest thing on earth!

*screamS*

waiting for abang nazlie present.

he meanie!

he owe me one.

haha.

Well although this year i am alone.

No one to celebrate it with.

I am just happy i got friends.

Thankful!

I love Amelea also!

haha.

ok i am mad!

i love everyone!!

hmm..

later might be going to watch the sunset.

With Amelea and Nisa and Kaiyisah!

I am like suppose to watch a movie with Faezah.

And my mummy like dont let me.

Sorry Faezah

Ok fine.

i am going out this Friday anyways.

So ya.

tralala i am happy.

Ok Nasri ask me for stead.

Amos confessed he like me.

like omigosh.

i am not going to make any decisions now.

sorry boys.

So last saturday had danceworks.

we did not win.

but i am just glad that we made throught it all together.

CHR MODERN DANCE ROCKS!

overall out of 54 schools,

our ranking is 30.

our percentage is 51%.

not bad right for first timers.

tralalalala.

we rock!

i saw Nashri that day

haha

thanks for coming (:

now that dance is over.

and our next dance is around next month.

i can focus on my studies more.

studY!!

but i will miss dancing alot lah.

especially the people in it!

haha.

ok i wont be updating always.

cause no time.

sorry ar computer!

well to all!

happy valentine's day.

and may today be filled with special memories that can never be forgotten!

kisses everyone!

to all the couples out there.

have fun today.

and boys please pamper the girls.

haha.

thanks!

<3!

lala*

sick

ok today i never go school.

i never go doctor also.

dont want to waste any more money.

i am so sick of being sick.

i am bored now.

tasha darling also sick.

poor amy have to be in school alone.

and ya.

farhannah also alone.

gosh i miss being crazy with farhannah and faezah.

ok stop.

this update i make longer.

to say what i did the last three days

friday:

hmm...

nurul and amelea came over to my house.

we watch sky high.

and we talked

i am glad that they are together.

then they went home.

i had to go chingay.

i had headache when i was there.

but then,

i saw this two handsome guys.

one was like the cheer people.

the other was the caretaker of the cheer people.

the caretaker of the cheer people fainted.

omigosh,

i was devastated.

if only he fainted in front of me,

i would have given him a kiss.

then he would be ok.

haiz.

fat hope.

who will fall for me?

well then went back.

saturday:

ok saturday was boring.

i went to funan the IT mall.

with my dad.

he bought computer stuffs.

my leg was like aching like shit.

then at night we ate macdonalds.

sunday:

bathe and all.

went out.

went to funeral first.

then off to wedding.

then to sim lim square.

then to housewarming.

then back home.

very tired already ar.

go back home

watch bring it on.

that show rocks my socks man.

how i wish i was a cheerleader.

i want to be a cheerleader.

oh wells.

just keep dreaming aqilah,

it wont happen.

monday:

that is today.

so far i have sent my brother to school.

and now on the com

i was chatting with yvonne see!

i miss her alot2

oh ya,

i want to talk about a weird dream i had this morning.

i dreamt that i was in the singapore idol auditions.

which i did not get in.

but then something amazing happen

i held hands with ALFY!

weird why i dream about him.

but then the dream is that we held hands.

and we ran around.

cause his admire was like chasing us.

how i wish it would happen.

but a girl like me.

and him

is impossible.

i would be better of only dreaming about him

and this is a first time i remembered a dream.

ok i stop here for now.

toodles everyone!

lala*

haiz.

Well life defintiely sucks.

its been a long time i update this blog.

No time perhaps.

Ok now is the chinese new year period.

First of all Happy Chinese New Year to all the chinese.

Had my reunion dinner at Singa Inn on Saturday.

Spent about 170 sing dollars.

Grandma paid for that.

My 'nyai' was also at the reunion dinner.

blah.blah.blah.

Before that we did alot of things.

we went to geyland.

i and my sis bought 'tudung'

ate there.

left and went to downtowneast shalet.

ate some more.

then went for reunion dinner.

fat already.

yesterday did not go visiting.

daddy was at work on duty.

wasted.

if not i can collect more 'hangbao'.

not many chinese relative.

wait have alot.

just dont know them that is all.

i went out with my uncle and auntie.

then we went over to their house.

and my brother slept there.

and i went home

quarreled with my mummy.

till now.

haiz.

whatev!

i slept outside last night.

freezing half to death.

barely even sleep.

cause she lock my room door.

lame.

i wanted to run away from home.

my sis told me not to.

wake up today.

feeling sad.

did not eat.

till i went over to my uncle house for chinese new year.

ate then leave.

later going out to meet my dad.

valentine's day coming.

my competition coming.

test coming.

all coming.

haiz.

stress.

*boys dont ask me out for valentine's day.

cause i wont go out.

sorry.

well i guess that is all.

toodles for now.

sorry if this is a boring post.

lala*

hmm..

oh this is so shit.

i just type a long entry and all just dissapear like whoosh!

argh!

ok not much is happening to my life.

i think i am ignoring boys.

i know it is mean.

but what the hell.

maybe i am a meanie.

but no one knows what i am feeling.

well yesterday something happened.

which made my heart pause for a moment.

then i could hardly breathe after that and i could not sleep.

*yawns*

am tired now.

today had dance.

mr adam was like super angry.

he banged the radio.

my heart paused.

like what the hell.

ok we were wrong we admit.

and we have only 7 hours left to the competiton.

this is total suicide.

we only finish tell like 1 mins and 40 seconds and we still have around 2 mins to go.

the anxiety is like to the limit!

whoa stop aqilah.

you are overreacting.

haiz.

oh wells.

anyway we are going to perform on 11th February.

At Ngee Ann City.

i dont know what time.

around 12.50 like that.

we are like the 3rd group to perform.

so not lucky.

haiz.

friends have been omigosh.

and darling breast tasha is sick.

and i am like so bored in school without her.

get well soon tasha breast!!

ok lah.

i am tired.

very.

i want to go get an early rest.

and a goodnight sleep.

toodles everyone!

kisses!

lala*

argh!

everything i do wrong!

argh!

i am not trying to find pity here ok.

i am just doing the right thing.

it is time i say everything out.

instead of keeping it in me.

is calling you a weirdo for fun wrong?

then must scold back fucker.

even if it is not play2 must scold fucker ar!

telling mummy you scared of me and isaac.

more like the other way round.

you stress.

i not stress ar.

last year.

you n'level i took care of most of the housework.

i got complain or not?

failed my common test cause i barely made time to study.

yet did i blame you?

no!

all i want you to do now is share the load?

also cannot.

i have to do the same thing.

so this year you will pass o'level then i will fail lah.

i dont know lah.

life is never perfect.

i know.

i would never disregard you as a sister.

but you.

your friend is so much better then me.

they have stick with you through thick and thin.

i have NEVER done anything to help you.

ya i failed as a sister.

i am just nobody ok.

i dont dislike ite student ok!

get it!

just go away from my life ok!!!

just go!

dont come back!!

i hate everyone!

:(

he is going ite.

well it is confirmed.

he is going to ite.

haiz.

last night i talked to him,

i found out.

i cried.

from like 11 till 1.

i slept

woke up at 5.

cant sleep till i wake up to go to school lah.

that is all.

hmm yeah.

ok i am so sad.

but in school,

i try not to be sad.

so no questions will be asked.

yup2.

had fun today at modern dance.

it is not so tough.

i was lifted to the air.

felt like an angel flying.

then when shaun carried me i feel directly on his shoulders.

and the worse thing was that my throat hit his shoulders.

so ya.

my throat hurts.

tasha was so funny.

ok cant type it out.

modern dance secret

sshh!

and mr adam made me keep his thing.

like what the hell.

all me.

its ok lah.

i can cope.

ok stop here.

one person to wish now.

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY DIYANAH!!!!

<3>

hehe.

kisses!

toodles

lala*

modern dance

so the new sec 1 batch has arrived to modern dance.

and boy they have got a long way to go.

some were too shy.

some thinks that her fringe is so important.

stupid shit.

ok hope they well be good like the seniors.

duh.

the seniors are not bad ok.

we can really dance.

we grew up to be closer during modern dance.

we always have fun together no matter how tiring it is.

yup2.

today i had to dance with my nose leaking.

stupid nose.

i was like teaching sec 1.

leading warm up

i am dead beat man.

oh ya mr adam said that if all the girls hair is not tied properly.

i am going to get it.

ya being the president of modern dance.

omigosh.

i was like what the hell.

ok enough about dance.

studies have been well as always stressful.

well it is n'level year.

i passed my maths test.

horray.

having poa test and chemistry test next.

haiz.

ok yesterday i was angry with two guys.

one was assuming.

the other was i dont know what to say.

well i was sad.

i cried.

that is why my sickness got worse.

haiz.

shit right.

well what the hell.

maybe that is part and parcel of life.

i dont know.

well cant take it.

too much.

i am sick like hello.

well only my family cares.

and my tasha lah.

and a few others.

like nasriah all.

thanks.

ok my hands are tired.

i wont be updating always.

i want to study.

thats all i want to focus on.

my dance and study.

danceworks is on 11 feb.

that is the preliminarys.

finals is in march.

yup.

oh ya before i forget.

happy 14th months to kak yana and abang nazlie!

love you both forever.

kisses!

toodles everyone.

lala*

update

well school has been abit tough.

yesterday was hari raya haji.

i collected 25 dollars.

that is alot ok.

ok back to me.

i have loads of homework.

tomorrow go maths test.

i came back at 7.30

and i am super tired.

haven done my homework.

and i am tired.

oh wells i am now juggling my studies and dance.

tired.

and now to make it worse i have breathing difficulties.

so ass.

ok lah.

got to study.

toodles!

lala*

first day of school

today is the first day of school.

my class is on level 4.

i am stuck with 4/7.

same students.

but this year the whole of 4/7 is going to graduate to sec 5.

hopefully yeah.

my form teacher is still mdm thila.

oh wells.

today was boring.

did not do anything.

actually i thought about him.

being in school.

i always looking for him and smile when i meet him.

this cant happen anymore.

i am all alone.

seeing his class reminds me of him.

:'(

oh god why must this happen.

i miss him holding my hand when we go home.

i miss leaning on his shoulders.

i cant go on anymore.

bye.

hello 2006

goodbye 2005!

hello 2006!

woohoo!

hooray!

a new year.

a new adventure.

a new life.

a new beginning.

everything will be new.

but memories of 2005 shall not be forgotten.

especially the special ones.

thanks to all the friends and people who made 2005 happen.

hmm.

a great 2005 huh.

2006 will be better.

after n's.

cant wait.

let me see what i feel now.

i just feel treasured that i have people whom i love most.

i so miss friends.

not really.

haha

i only miss tasha.

whee!

i am just happy.

carrying on with my life.

being stupid everyday and irritating my sis.

not crying anymore.

unless i really need to!

ha!

but tasha wont let me cry.

woohoo!

ok lah.

i am going out.

so i have to get ready.

today is 1st of January of 2006!

haha.

toodles.

lala*

merry x'mas

hey wells so it is christmas day today.

different from last year

this year is more quiet

my cousins are out of town.

and i am like so totally bored.

kinda have a headache now

so shit.

its ok.

ella,fiq and my neighbours are here now.

havoc the house.

haha.

well they make me happy and that is good.

just now i did not went swimming.

but i went down

then all of them pulled me to the pool

kak yana also did not go swimming.

but ended up getting wet.

hehe.

oh wells

now i want to think about my new year's resolution

cause it is like 6 more days till the new year.

so fast huh

and next year i am taking my n'level.

so the first resolution is to pass my n'level and hopefully get 5 points.

ok i am getting bored of typing already.

toodles.

and MERRY X'MAS EVERYONE!!!

love,

lala

today

ok i am like so bored.

i want to go out with my friends and just be crazy for one day.

haiz.

i will die staying at home.

today we are having a small children christmas party.

cause the older people had one.

hope it will be great cause i helped to cook nasi lemak.

and i wasted alot of money on buying presents.

actually not waste.

cause i like buying presents.

i hate guys.

they just dont understand me.

i know i am being selfish for not opening my heart again

but that is who i am.

my heart is still broken and how i wish it will heal again.

it needs time to heal.

haiz.

i just need to be alone.

thanks tasha.

i just miss this crazy girl.

miss bullying her and talking craps with her.

i read your blog and it is super sweet.

i love you too tasha.

oh wells she is the best.

well i got to go.

get ready to party everyone.

cant wait till christmas and a brand new year.

i am taking my n's next year and i want to do well.

so less com time and tv time for me.

goodbye tv and com.

wait it is not 2006 yet

ok i will stop my crap.

toodles.

p/s 4 more days till chritmas.cant wait.

love,

lala*

life is shit.

here i am feeling miserable and he is out there playing pool.

haiz.

maybe he is happy going to ITE

then i should be happy and forget him and wish him all the best.

being with him for nearly a year makes it abit difficult to forget him

and it hurts just trying to forget him

i got a sore throat.

i am coughing.

i think i am getting a fever.

i dont know.

thanks nashri for caring about me.

but dont go to the extend then you cant sleep cause of me ok.

thanks haizal for messaging me every night.

sorry i cant reply.

cause my prepaid low.

thanks nazi for chatting with me last night.

all these are boys huh.

ya.

well just to let you guys know.

dont fall in love with me.

i am nothing compared to other girls.

ok.

i am sorry.

tasha boyfriend failed also.

and she cried.

she thinks its her fault.

well tasha although he is my ex.

i feel the same way.

i got to clean the house.

he is going to town now.

well hope you are happy.

love,

lala *

results.

today is the day where all the n'level get their results.
well i am super happy and proud for my sister.
this is the first time she passed all.
including her maths.
thumbs up sis.
i know you can do it.
i am super proud to be your sister
(:
abang nazlie passed
i am so glad.
shan and sandral passed.
ok congratulations.
cant wait to meet you guys next year.

ok the post sounds boring.
not really boring but sad
well i am sad
and disappointed.
abdul failed
he FAILED!
i am so sad.
heart broken to many pieces.
i cried in the car.
for the first time.
i just feel like it is my fault.
well i cant accept him back now.
i am so sad.

i cant type anymore
i am going to cry
the day is spoiled.
haiz.

toodles.
:'(

lala*

my life

ok so i am coping.

trying to forget love,

trying to be happy.

and people are helping me.

on the 14 december 05.

i was super happy.

tasha,iena,quraisah,kaiyisah was at my house.

we went swimming.

we were gossiping about people first before swimming.

ha!

we ate like pigs.

i am getting darker i think.

haha.

oh wells yesterday was sad at night.

abdul mum messaged me.

dont want to go into details.

ask me if you want to find out!

there is someone sleeping over tonight.

Yeahs!

nur farella know as ella is slepping over.

we are so going to sleep late.

ha!

cant wait.

well i this sunday am collecting 3oo bucks.

it is edusave scholorship.

i got top 10%

woohoo!

money here i come.

then next year i am collecting 150 bucks!

for EAGLES award.

i am getting rich.

hehe.

(:

ok cant brag much.

i cant wait for 27 december also.

i have auditions for next year danceworks.

i hope i get in.

i am praying to get in.

well if i am not good enough then ok.

thats all for now i think

and oh ya.

thanks haizal for trying to make me happy.

i appriciate it.

ok my hands hurt.

Toodles!

lala*