update.

firstly sorry to shaiful.

i could go back with you.

but last minute cannot.

cause my mum called up and asked to go for lunch.

sorry.

sorry to bloggies.

i have not been updating.

especially kak maria!

love cha!

i have been caught up.

with mount kinabalu training.

and dance (:

i miss dancing so badly.

so mid year starts today.

the challenge also starts.

i have to pass my mid year.

i just have to.

ok relax.

i am so tired luh

:(

i miss this person.

but i dont know whether she misses me.

haiz.

oh wells.

damn stress already.

dont want to make myself more stress.

well just waiting for mid year to end.

the last paper is on the 11th may.

thank god.

yesterday was fun!

fana,nurul & iena was at my home.

i was studying together with fana and iena.

nurul was just watching tv.

ahah.

they went back around 7.30

only fana went back earlier.

then i and fana hid iena's and nurul's shoes.

mean

(:

they panick.

ahahaha.

embarrased.

ok i dont know what to say already.

wont be using the com always.

now i got to study ok people.

take care.

<3

kisses!

lala*

sorry.

hey to shaiful.

this is for you ar.

read this whole paragraph.

i am sorry.

real sorry.

i thought you were angry at me.

so you did not wait for me or reply my messages,

i am real sorry.

i never forget friends

evertime i want to go back with you i have something on.

i am sorry.

please dont angry with me and reply my messages.

when i am free i will go back with you.

now cannot

got alot of remedials and tests.

then my prelims are coming real soon.

hope you understand kk.

(:

today had mount k training again.

damn tired luh.

NAZIRUL NOT IN MY GROUP!!!!

argh.

then no one help me next time.

never mind ok nazirul

i still can bully you after training ahah.

he is so SWEET!

he sent me to outside my guardhouse.

(:

then he walk home himself.

so sad

):

during our walk home.

me,fana,raviin and him lah.

fana very funny!!

ahaha.

got cockroach on her shirt.

then she like screaming like mad like that.

it was disgusting.

really.

i also screamed!

funny right?

then as per normal our friend.

the raviin bully us.

ok thats all.

my legs were wobbling just now.

but now it is fine.

my right knee!

is weak man!

after the fall.

like how lame

and tomorrow have napha test!

yayness!

half day!

till 11.

then go meet auntie watch movie!

coolness!

(:

toodles everyone!

love cha loads!

muacks!

AND TIARA!
I HOPE YOU READ THIS!
I AM NO LONGER ANGRY WITH YOU!
YAYNESS!

AM SORRY!

yeah and my condolences to your mummy.

but you and sharen must be strong ok.

love cha!

lala*

only hope (:

There's a song that's inside of my soul

It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again

I'm awake in the infinite cold

But You sing to me over and over and over again

So I lay my head back down

And I lift my hands

and pray to be only Yours

I pray to be only Yours

I know now you're my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars

Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing

and laughing again

When it feels like my dreams are so far

Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again

So I lay my head back down

And I lift my hands and pray

To be only yoursI pray to be only yours

I know now you're my only hope

I give You my destiny

I'm giving You all of meI want Your symphony

Singing in all that I am

At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back

So I lay my head back down

And I lift my hands and pray

To be only yoursI pray to be only yours

I pray to be only yours

I know now you're my only hope

i love the song!!!

so kawaii neh!

by mandy moore.

A WALK TO REMEMBER!

ahah.

ok.

toodles!

kisses!

<3!

lala*

first mount kinabalu training

today had mount kinabalu training and boy it is tiring.
haha.
i think i was the slowest.
but thanks to Nazirul i was ok.
i mean i endured
THANKS NAZIRUL!
LOVE CHA MANY2!!!

haha.
we did circuits and staircase.

whoa.

suppose to do running actually.

but it was raining.

finished at 6.

went home with fana,nazirul,raviini and zul.

haha.

we laugh2.

so fun

now at home

tired

like duh.

so obvious

ahah.

tomorrow got physics test.

going to screw it again.

like i have not even touched my book.

lol.

ok am going to study.

toodles!

kisses!

<3s

lol.

as friend lah

(:

kawaii neh!

lala*

a walk to remember.

watching A Walk To Remember makes me think.

do we only think about fufiling all our wishes when we know we are going to die or when we need to?

watching the show a billion times will make me cry.

a billion times you know.

not exactly lah,

it is only my 3rd time.

ahah.

and i love the song mandy moore sang.

(:

somehow or rather the show is telling us something significant.

hmm..

talking about this also made me think about love.

sometimes i feel lonely.

sometimes i feel that i dont need boys.

i dont know how i mixed my feelings also.

like haiz...

so emotional...

i am watching DIA now.

and i am so sad that Dwi died.

seeing people dying is so sad.

but i am not afraid of dying.

cause i wont even blame god for me dying.

it is all fated right?

ok i know this post is boring.

i think so too..

but i just feel like writing it.

so bear it with me ok

(:

lala*

girlfight.

there's about to be a what?

GIRLFIGHT!

ahaha.

ok

i am mad.

like i am suppose to be sad.

like whatev!

ok let me tell you a story.

there once lived a girl.

named faezah and aqilah.

aqilah was close to faezah.

till one day faezah backstab aqilah.

faezah told bad things to people about aqilah.

and aqilah got to know.

aqilah was sad.

and did not talk to faezah.

then one day aqilah found out that faezah message aqilah's friend.

aqilah was quite angry.

then aqilah ask anansa to ask faezah whether it is the truth and anansa dont know what also she tell faezah.

then in between changing of periods faezah came to aqilah table and shouted at her.

aqilah was softhearted and did not say anything.

but then aqilah suddenly cried.

everyone came to aqilah's table.

but aqilah shoo them away.

aqilah dont like attention.

then school bell rang.

school was over.

faezah went to the canteen and started crying.

dont know for what also.

aqilah never scold also.

so aqilah cried again.

cause she is sure that faezah was talking bad about her.

then the next day...

faezah message aqilah.

say aqilah went around telling people about the problem.

but actually it was faezah herself.

cause she was crying.

so aqilah find it lame and heck care.

then faezah keep crying.

but no one cares eventually.

so aqilah also dont care.

aqilah dont blame anansa

but anansa should not say anyhow.

aqilah dont want to forgive faezah.

cause aqilah was shamed in front of the whole class.

and aqilah lived happily ever after with the others in 4/7 and her friends from 4/8 & 4/6

and her other friends lah.

those she know.

(:

-THE END-

haha.

now lala is back.

the story was great right.

it happened yesterday

haha.

ok and now i am happy.

cause i have friends and family to back me up.

and nasri.

i know you will read this.

am sorry also ok.

ok today had maths test.

FAILED IT!

cause i hardly do.

it was so difficult

haha.

have to study.

i am like so lazy.

and lala loves her sister!

please donte cry anymore.

i love you alot ok.

no matter what.

no matter how much we quarrel.

lala <3s>

tasha my darling breast friend.

think before making decisions ok.

haha.

love your breast (:

amelea my breast friend also.

thanks for standing up for me.

without you i dont know what to do.

haha.

and last but not least.

FARHANNAH!

thanks farhannah.

for always being there for me!

i love you all alot!!

thankiew.

ok this entry is long and i gtg watch NARNIA!

haha.

toodles everyone.

<3!

kisses!

lala*

me & sis (:

me and my stupid short hair....

my injured hand.but cant really see the cuts.

my damn injured leg.look at how ugly it looks.argh.am ugly already!

bored

hello people!

i am like suppose to be studying.

but what the heck.

let me blog first ok.

ok i went to sentosa on saturday.

i was injured.

so it was boring.

cant do much.

but i took pictures.

picture of my injured hand,

my injured leg,

and my freaking short hair.

update pics later.

sunday went out.

i dont know where also.

ahah.

then tasha got the phone that i wanted!

not fair!

6111 pink!

i want.

haha.

its ok tasha.

ahah.

love you breast friend.

ahah.

today was great.

i love fana,iena and nurul like doodles!

i miss farah!

we went over to nurul house.

to eat PIZZA!

first we had to make it.

woohoo.

so delicious.

then i had to leave early.

like not fair.

ok nasri is so making me sad.

not really ar.

actually i dont give a shit about boys.

i hate boys!

not all lah.

but still.

argh.

okok.

got to study.

tomorrow have test!

toodles everyone!

kisses!

<3!

lala*

injured.

i injured my knee today.

like i am suppose to help fana.

but i fell instead.

like how lame.

and thanks to nina i am ok.

she carried me to the sick bay.

thanks nina.

and iena and fana took care of me.

so sweet.

and kaartikgayan was so concern.

thanks guys!

breast tasha not in school again.

like everytime like that.

miss her like hell.

ok my knee hurts now.

it is quite bad you can say.

and my hang hurts.

got scratches.

i cant become a model cause the scratch might leave a scar.

so ugly.

ugly me

:'(

ok well tomorrow am going to Sentosa.

for picnic.

yeahness.

love everyone!

kisses!

lala*

today.

so effing depressed now.

am i that fierce?

i mean,

like if your younger brother would spit at you,

and you cant do anything.

wont you be angry.

and abang nazlie say i am fierce.

well Isaac i hate you.

cause you spit at me.

and you were rude to me.

kaarpish!

i passed my physics mock exam and chemistry mock exam.

yeahness to that.

but did not do well for physics.

but still passed.

so good enough.

today went to nurul house.

it was super fun.

together with iena and the 'atuk'(so cute)

they made me watch the last part of the final destination 3 and i am like still freaking out here.

like whoa.

that show is super scary.

not advisable to my tasha breast.

then we ate her father deliciously cooked beef noodles.

then the 'atuk' gave me sweets.

that i did not eat.

but brought it home to kak yana.

the 'atuk' so funny.

call me anak indian.

haha.

i think so

then nurul lay down so many blanket and we slept watching ICE PRINCESS.

then next on the movie was MEAN GIRLS!

haha.

so fun

and we ate nuggets and hotdog.

yummy.

then i bully iena.

so cute right.

(:

ok i guess that is all.

i have not done my malay homework.

shit.

cikgu omar is so going to school me if i dont hand it up.

but seriously i dont know what to write.

oh wells.

just write some shit up.

i miss farah.

i want to hug her.

to thank her.

ok then.

toodles.

till next time.

kisses!

<3!

lala*

I can go!

Hahahha.

guys i am head over heels now.

i am going crazy!

i can go mount K!!

yeahs!

cause we only need to pay 200 bucks!

like whoa!

just enought for my dad budget!

argh!

*screams*

*pulls hair*

It is during the June holidays

7-11 June.

Hahahaahahahah

today i played in the rain with tasha and amy!

coolness.

its been a long time since i played in the rain!

ahah.

and i am going Mount Kinabalu!

everybody scream!

hehe.

tomorrow is amy's birthday!

tomorrow got modern dance!

argh!

haha

i am so cold now.

haha

tralalala.

i miss tasha breast!

<3!

<3!

i miss Mastura!

I miss Kaiyisah!

I miss Quraishia!

I miss everyone!

haha.

i am mad.

sorry

so i shall not go on.

or the post will go crazy.

hahahaaha.

i am going Mount K.

toodles everyone

<3!

hahahahaha.

lala*

Happy birthday celeste!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CELESTE CHEN PING!!!!

SWEET 16!

woohoo!

Love you breast.

sorry could not attend to your party.

but still love you lah.

haha.

Well hmm...

yesterday had library service.

so freaking boring.

then went home and enjoyed with MASTURA!

(:

hehe.

i straightened her hair.

and she was like so excited.

weird girl.

but fun.

haha.

and i did her nails for her.

then yesterday had religious class.

on thursday had sports day.

i ran for 4 x100

i got third.

just for running one event.

like super cool

(:

took pictures.

with pastor tasha,mas and kak yana.

nice.

will try to update later.

well thats all really.

you know what.

i start to think about boys again.

i mean i miss holding hands.

hugging.

lalaing.

everything.

but what the heck

i will try to forget about that thinking.

somehow or rather i am feeling so alone.

but never mind.

got iena,kaiyisah,shaiful,fana,faezah,anansa

and my pastor tasha.

and not to forget mastura.

all of them are enough already.

okok

i hope i can go Mount K this year,

if the cost is not to high

my daddy will let me go.

yeahness to that.

Yun is going

(:

hehe.

ok lame.

well this time he has his friends.

so what the hell.

ok thats all for now.

am going to bed.

super tired!

toodles!

kisses!

<3!

lala*

hate my life now.

i dont know what to do no more

day by day i would just let day passed.

what happen yesterday people may ask.

well i have lost my friends.

yesterday was a pretty good day you can say.

till i wanted to go home.

that was when it started.

i thought they waited for me.

but no.

so i was a moron trying to call them and no one picked up their phone.

so i went back with my sis.

took the taxi and cried in the taxi.

kak yana was of course angry.

and so is abang nazlie.

i am not trying to save my name or whatever.

then i was ok already

at home called nurul.

and i found out they were having a party.

A PARTY WITHOUT ME?

and to claim i and tasha's good friend.

i cried on the spot.

feeling like an idiot.

i went to dance.

walked.

and think about it.

i was so stupid.

i dont know.

i felt so lost.

i wanted someone to talked to me.

then after modern dance.

i talked to syadariena.

she cried.

i am sorry iena.

i went back home.

i called nurul.

talked to her

i cried.

she cried

sorry.

today i had a pretty bad headache in school

it feel like hell.

and tasha sent me a letter.

she said the birthday was a surprise.

so i guess it is not her fault.

i dont know.

i know i dont belong to 4/8

i belong to 4/7

i will always be the last to go out of class.

in the end no one will go back with me.

i dont know what to do already.

nisa:

you can say whatever you want to say.

i dont give a damn about you cause i know you never did liked me.

you can tell people that i was controlling tasha.

like what did i do?

and i dont like you scolding Iena.

she is soft hearted already and you think you can step all over her?

well think again.

Look at yourself.

girl you need an attitude adjustment and somebody is going to help you with that.

tasha:

i was just disappointed that i did not know about the party.

i feel that we have drifted apart.

we never talk no more.

we never go out no more.

i was not even there for your party.

i would let my mother hate me then miss your party.

at least if my presence was there awhile it would be great.

but i was not even known of that party.

well i dont know what to say.

amelea:

seriously dont know what to say about you.

Iena and Nurul:

thanks for tallking to me.

and sorry to make you guys cry.

am very sorry.

well i dont know the full storey about the party.

but from reading Kaiyisah blog.

i knew that they had fun.

that was my only wish for tasha.

and it was granted.

thanks god.

i cried lah.

yes.

as i am typing now also i am crying.

the feeling of losing a friend is never good.

this is quite a long entry and i am tired.

thanks to all the people who tried to help me.

now i will just let nature take it's course.

toodles everyone.

take care

lala*

fuck everyone lah

OK LAH EVERTHING IS MY FAULT HAPPY!!??
ALL OF YOU ARE CORRECT!
I AM THE WRONG ONE!
JUST GET AWAY LAH!

mock exam

my head is now filled with equations and chemistry.

like wth!

i have to remember PHYSICS now.

like PHYSICS not CHEMISTRY!!

actually PHYSICS means DEATH.

cause my marks physics marks are like pulling my combined science down.

shitness.

ok then.

tasha's birthday is like coming.

and dance is like also coming.

like how exciting.

hehe.

i am so excited.

tasha!

i love you!

and i miss you.

haha.

this crazy gal.

we are best of friends.

althought we are not together.

haha.

FRIENDS FOREVER!

ok i am like how lame.

Nurul you breast.

i also miss you ok.

like hell.

then call you at home you not at home.

like how lame.

haha.

ok i love you alot ok kaiyisah!

ok i am going to try study physics now.

i hope i get it.

toodles everyone.

<3!

all the best to mua!

kisses!

lala*

results!

hey!

results are out!

guess what.

i got 4th in class!

with 69%

like woohoo!

farhannah beat me like 1 % only.

haiyoh me.

hehe

i am happy with this results anyway.

but must do better.

yup!

tomorrow got chemistry mock test!

like what the hell.

i am so stressed up.

hopefully again i am saying this.

i wont forget what i studied.

oh god please help me!

amin!

hehe

ok first time.

i am happy lah today.

but i miss my breast tasha friend.

she is always with other people.

tasha!

i want you!

hehe.

ok lame.

i was chatting with shaiful and nazirul!

they rocks my socks.

haha.

but they meanie.

they like to bully.

haha.

but never mind.

forgive you guys.

ok now got to study after using the com.

no wait.

i want to bathe first.

i smell..

eww...

hehe.

toodles everyone!

lala*

sick

damn.

just said that i have not been getting bronchitis.

now i got it.

not in school now.

wonder what happened in school.

hmmm...

lalalala.

lucky this bronchitis is a light one.

not a severe one.

ok am going to study now.

tasha's birthday:6 more days!

update.

first of all i and Syadariena would like to wish our darling Shaiful

HAPPY BELATED 16TH BIRTHDAY SHAIFUL RIDZUAN!!

sorry your birthday yesterday and now then i wish.

haha.

but i sent you message right.

ok well how was my hols.

it was boring.

like shit.

half the time i am worrying about mock test that is coming.

like how lame.

imagine the pressure.

anyways i bought a roxy pencil box.

a black and purple one.

not i bought it.

my dad did.

haha.

how sweet

(:

ok mummy and us are back together.

like i also dont know why.

it is because of daddy that we are back together.

hmm..

i am having a lame headache now.

actually i am having headaches everyday.

my migrane is acting up again.

i think it is due to n'level

ok lah.

i dont know what to write.

i am like so bored.

but later got DIA

and Dwi is how pretty.

tralalala.

toodles!

kisses!

<3!

lala*

lalalalalala.

hmm...

what shall i talk about today?

oh yesh.

go read tasha blog.

i cried while reading her blog.

she is like how sweet.

she wrote about me.

well tasha.

i love you too!

<3!

i am super glad to have a friend like you too..

am glad and happy that you are turning 16.

all the best ok

(:

ok enough about that.

yesterday went out with hui shan, sandral, kak yana and abang nazlie.

it was fun.

we went to marina square and to esplanade.

i dont know why but i am sweet tooth now.

i just want to nible on chocolates and sweets..

hmm...

yummy chocolate...

ok then after that i went home.

and guess what.

kak yana lost her wallet.

like wth.

she cried.

then mastura helped me to get numbers to call.

Thanks Mas (:

then called but no use.

wallet is nowhere to be found.

haiz.

today had library service.

then went home.

ate instant noodles.

oh ya lah.

today never eat alot.

no mood.

the instant noodles also never finish.

hmm..

after eat went to religious class.

just came back.

lalala.

mummy is giving me and sis a cold shoulder.

like how lame.

and it is not even our fault.

she did not even give me money to go out.

i went out with 10 dollars.

all digged out from my piggy bank.

now all empty.

lets see how long the war can last.

i am not going to give in.

a few more days till school reopens.

and i never even start studying my physics and chemistry mock test.

die

:(

ok lah.

that's all for now.

kisses!

lala*

Photos

Click to enlarge (:

Update

Sorry blog readers if i have not been updating.

Have no time pratically.

Too busy doing stuffs..

Ok lets see.

What can we talk about.

Oh ya.

I just came back from the library.

Had to do CIP there.

For 30 hours.

Just for NYAA.

Like how tiring.

Shelving books.

My hand can breaks.

My eyes can turn blind seeing all the number.

But it was ok overall..

Hmm..

Last Saturday went to Faezah birthday party..

It was great.

I took lots of pictures.

Will update.

Yesterday went out.

To alot of places.

I also dont know where.

Sorry.

This whole week is booked for me.

So those who wants to go out with me.

Sorry cannot already.

Love?

now is not the time to think about it.

am still young.

(:

I have found someone who likes dancing also.

Haha.

Kak Maria.

She was in danceworks.

Like coolness.

haha

<3!

Ok am having a headache now.

Dont know what to type.

Haha.

I miss my friends.

(:

take care.

Happy holidays!

Kisses.

<3.

lala*

[p.s. i find this post boring. dont you think so? sorry if you do. haha (:]

wake up to reality please!

Argh!

I despise people who pretending to be somebody they are not.

I was so glad to have met 'Tiara' or whatever her name is.

I was glad as she was blonde.

I never had a blonde friend.

Yet now 'tiara' is not who i thought she was.

She was lying to my face all this while.

Come on lah.

How would i feel?

and sharen the sister followed with the plan.

like wtf!

now she has shown her true colours

and like what?

i have to forgive and forget?

Why cant people just accept who they were born to be.

instead of playing pretend.

like wtf?

what you gain?

fame?

more like lame.

i dont hate anybody.

no matter a guy, girl,

blonde, not blonde.

clever or not.

it depends on your own personality.

i like everyone.

playing pretend with me makes me despise you.

wake up to reality.

not in dreamland where you can play pretend and lie to everyone.

forget it.

dont want to talk about it.

today was like i dont know how to describe.

tests were like almost every lesson.

i nearly went beserk.

and this happens.

i am so tired.

i think i am getting my bronchitis again.

i am coughing like one kind like that.

but i cant possibly get sick at this time.

haiz.

tomorrow is abang nazlie birthday and if i cant go online tomorrow i would want to wish him a happy advanced birthday.

hugs and kisses from me.

and ya.

mastura.

am glad you found someone you love.

hope you and him stay long together cause i know he is a great guy.

so to the both of you.

all the best ok!

am tired of typing now.

gtg study

toodles!

lala*

hmmm..

life like totally sucks to me.

I am suppose to be like sleeping now but my grandma need don't know what thing.

Like argh!

I need to go school!

I want to sleep.

*yawns*

My darling Mastura has found someone special.

Wooo..

That was fast.

Hmm..

I am still lonely

:(

Never mind.

forget boys.

anyways i said sorry to all the guys i rejected.

i dont know if it was the right thing to do.

this whole week was full of tests and homework.

although we had no common test,

i felt like i am having my common test.

i did well for my english compo.

yeah for me

for the first time.

i got 21/30.

Today had english oral.

and i sucked.

how about my malay.

so going to die.

tomorrow have social studies and maths test.

haiz.

and i am not in bed.

i want to sleep.

oh ya today i went back with iena.

it was a long time since we went back home just the two of us.

romantic huh.

hehe.

we talked.

and my throat is like pain now.

lame.

ok i got what i needed.

so i sign off now.

take care everyone.

all the best for common test.

toodles!

kisses!

lala*