Tiring Day!!

I am so damn tired...Argh!!Got alot of thing roaming in my mind..Next week is my common test..I still have my modern dance training till SYF..I am dead...Totally...Feeling so stressed up..Above all that i am still thinking about him..I am so scared of losing him..But how i am to make sure that i dont lose him? Haiz so far today is quite ok..I studied well..I understood the chemistry lesson and i am proud of myself..

Today i went back with him..Quite glad actuall..I know he really loves me..Today modern dance was tiring..We were like bending and now my back really hurts..Yups but overall it was ok..Miss Tan was like pretty angry cause many ppl did not turn up and she wanted to kick some ppl out..But i hope she wont..

Well just beat my brother cause my mum like scold me..I am sorry Isaac..I dont mean too but i am tired..Please understand..

Got to go do my homework now..Till next time..Take good care of yourself..Common test is just next week..Play and study hard..Good luck!!

Lots of hugs and kisses,
Princess Aqilah

Bored!

Well today did not go school..Got a bad stomachache in the morning and now got a bad headache..

On friday had dance rehersal at Kallang theathre..It was ok..We had fun..We saw all the other group from our school dancing..There were nice..Especially the malay dance..We claped for them and they did the same for us..For the indian dance there were nice but they critisied us so we did not clap for them...I hurt my second last toe while dancing...It was bleeding..After the rehersal i,tasha and amy headed for causeway..We took neoprints..I was limping all the way cause my toe really hurts..Then i went back around 4.00..


On Saturday went out with my cuzzies..We went to Suntec city and ate at Sanur..High class place and we spent 75 over bucks..Just for lunch..For dinner we ate at a high class place also at Esplanade which we spent over 75 bucks also..The food was nice but i was heartbroken when the money was used..Hehe..At esplanade we took a boat ride..It was nice as we could see the scenery..I was thinking about him all the while when i was at the boat..At esplanade we walk around there..I and my sis saw lots of couples...It reminded me of him again..My second last toe is injured so i walked real slow..

Yesterday went to Escape theme park with my cuzzies..It was superd although my toe was injured and my cousin step on it..Altogether i had fun..My sis though was scared with most of the rides as we had not been there for a long time..Tried to call him a few times yesterday but his line was busy..In the afternoon and night..I dont really know what happent to the line but i was really fraustrated cause i call him till 11 hoping to get throgh but to no avil..Haiz..Dont want to talk about him...

Got to go already..

Lots of love and kisses,
Princess Aqilah

Valentine's day..

Well today was a very happy day for me..But i was tired..More information go to http://abdulandaqilah.blogspot.com I wrote the things there..Now to tired to wirte..


Till next time..HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!

Lots of love,
Princess Aqilah

Bbq

Well yesterday had bbq with Faezah,Anansa,Nisa,Abang Rahim,Abang Nazlie and my Abdul..And dont forget my darling Tasha..Tasha slept over at my house..Hehe..We slept around 2..We were dancing and talking crap..Hehe..But i was talking to Abdul more often..I miss her..I miss him..I miss everyone..It is a waste that My darling Amy and Nurul did not come..Kinda miss them lots..

Today i am going out i guess...Next whole week is going to be a tiring week..Everyday got modern dance practice..Then on Monday is Valentine's day and it is our 3rd month anniversary..Yippes...But i hope i wont look tired...I want to feel happy..

Till next time i blog yeahs..Take care people..Study hard for common test okies...

Lots of love,
Princess Aqilah

x. :) .x

Just came back..Accompanied the soccer boys eat..He hurt his leg today..And he scold loads of bad words..Haiz..Feeling kinda sick..Got sore throat..But i must remember to stay happy..Later my mum will scold...Just now Abang Nazlie ask me whether i was ok..I said ya..But the truth is the incident is still in my head..Was i too much last friday? I dont know..Questions that needs to be answered in my head..I know i have forgiven him..But why am i still thinking about it? I dont know..That is why..Actually i did not want to go school..But what will my mum say..So force myself..Tomorrow got modern dance..Dont have the energy to go..But again have to force..

:)

I got a good friend..Her name is Jazlyn..I love her lots..She help me alot..Hehe..She told me this
"heyys jush wna tell you dont let a guy take over you . . okies . . dont let them control your feelings . .((+ jush wna say this cause i dont wna other gurls to suffer in the hands of guys jush lyk me"..So sweet right..I love her lots..Thanks Jazlyn i will always remember you.. :)
Today had modern dance..But we were released earlier..Yesterday had modern dance and Shaun pants ripped off..Hehe.. :) He was so embarresed..But we had fun although got scolding from Farah..I am now having a sore throat..But i still drink coke..Hehe..Today did not go back with him but i miss him loads...I want to be with him always..Now i got to go as my daddy is nagging at me...

Till next time i blog..Bye ppl and i made a new blog for me and him..http://abdulandaqilah.blogspot.com/..Not complete but i hope it is nice..Bye!!

He did it again!!

Why must people do this to me??Did i do something bad in the past that is making me suffer..First happy now sad...What the hell...Tried to stay happy for the whole day and he said something which made me feel fucked up!!WHY WHY?!?!i dont know what to say already!!I am so sick and tired..Was so happy at the game and now at home feeling miserable..It is not that i dont love him..I do..Alot2..But..Haiz..Just want to be alone and cry now i guess..I miss him alot..But..I want to forgive him..But i cant bring myself to do it..He is going to repeat his mistake over and over again..I hope not..I dont know what to do now..Got a terrible headache..Nobody is here with me..I am feeling so lost and confused..I really2 dont know what to do!!

P.S Sorry for the bad words..But i just cant help it!!

****ed Up

I am so damn tired today and i am just feeling frustrated!! How can he forget to give his picture and remember to give his short to my sis?Why Why Why??Fine do whatever he wants to do..I just cant be bothered anymore..Why should i care about his picture...Although i want it but since he cant give me so just forget it...Why should i get angry all the time..I think he thinks i like doing this..But i am trying not to get angry..I think i am more dissapointed..I feel so tired!! I am sick and tired of my life and my everything..I am feeling damn stupid always going "Did you bring your picture?" And he will always reply "Oh I forgot." ok fine forget all the things for all i care!!!!! I feel tired!! I just want to breakdown and cry!!What the hell!! And most of my damn classmates dont want to stay back for awhile and do some fucking decorations to the class..What the hell..If later we win, they get the things also...Stupid fuckers in my class...I just hate everyone...Nobody is trying to make me happy..I am trying so hard to make other people happy but what about me???!!!!I guess everyone hates me..Is there something wrong with me??Can anyone tell me??Somebody please voice out if my attitude sucks or whatever shit!!


p.s Sorry for the vulgar language..But i just need to express myself..

Update!!

Argh!!Got bad headache!! Everything is moving around me when i am not moving...Argh!!Damn it..Well today never go school cause i was too tired...But i woke up early though..Dont know why..Well these few weeks has been quite tiring..Got modern dance..Then got swimming..Then got lots of homework that needs to be done..Feeling so stressed up..But i know i can cope with all these..
Having Problems with the Scandolls now..We are going to break up and just be normal friends i guess..Haiz..Dont know ar..I will just follow their decisions..I just cant think anymore..If i do i think i will breakdown..Haiz..But i really want us to be together..
Well I find my class quite ok..Sitting with Thinesh...He teaches me..Have good friends like Farhannah, Faezah & Anansa whom always help me also..And got Qing Xiu pau..And my Brother Leong Kiat..They are good enough..Going to enjoy with the class i think...

Well till next time i blog..Bye2..Take care..Muacks..

P.S Hope you like the new skin that i just did!!Tata everyone!!

Sick!ArgH!!

Well today school was tiring..But the worse thing is that i did not go back with him..Sad..

Today have lots of homework!!Argh!!dont know whether can finish..And the worse thing is that i have flu and my body hurts alot..Now just got message from my mum that my dad is on the way back home...Argh!!can my life get any worse? Ar..Whatever arx..Dont feel like doing anything right now..But i miss him and i cant call him..What the hell..That's why i want to go back with him..Haiz..

Got to go..Till next time...Take care people..

New Year & First Dae of school!

Well first of all Happy New Year..Haha..It is 2005..So fast..Well this new year is a great year to start afresh..Me? Just want to pass my exams..Do well in POA.. Thats all i guess i want to do for this new year..Haha..
Today was the first day of school..Boring..My class is like damn boring..The girls..Argh..Not many nice girls to hang around with..Haiz..forget it..Try to accept the class..Finish school at 1.45..Cool right..All my good friends are at 3/8..Unfair..Hope they will still remember me although i am in a different class..Well the teacher's are ok i guess..I think can bear with them..
Today suppose to go home with Abdul but did not..Did not communicate properly..He was like waiting for me in school and i thought he had Soccer..Then he waited for me..Poor thing..Just now called him..Tomorrow i think i am going back with him..Cause he wants to wait for me..

Well got to sleep..Tired already..Nitex..Till next time..Bye2..Take care people..

Hey!

Well long time never blog..Haha..Too lazy to type and dont really have the time..Well last whole week daddy was at home..We went to the zoo on tuesday and the rest of the days we went shopping..I finally got my Nokia 7200 on wednesday where i was so happy..
Miss Abdul alot though..Cant call him..Cant message him cause his hp dont know what happen..Well Christmas day did nothing much..My uncle gave me and my sis earrings and my brother a magic thingy..
Cant wait till i go back to school cause kinda miss my friends..And cant wait till the new year..And my resolutions for next year is to get good grades,do well in my examinations,buy more skirts,start working and many more..Haha =)
Well that is all i can possibly think about..Till next time i blog, HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!! =) GOOD LUCK!

update!

Well long time since i blog..Well hello people..I currently just came back from Batam..

That place...Argh..Terrible..Lots of weird people..Not a nice place to go for a holiday actually..Wanted to shop but there was practically nothing to but there..So just spent lots of money on food..Haha..Eat until fat already..Well there was one nice view we saw..It was a bridge..Unique bridge..That was all practically..The people there were weird..Whenever they see me or my sis, they will stare at us like we did something wrong..Weird huh? The toilet there..Argh..Disgusting..Dont wish to talk about it..

Last friday was Abdul birthday..Well happy belated birthday..He spent the whole afternoon at my house..Haha..Nice..But the bad thing is that he was sick..Poor thing..Well he went back around 8..haha..Happy that he was around to be with me..Haha..

This week..Dont really know what to do..Dad will be at home today and tomorrow so i dont think i can do anything..But i miss him alot..And guess what? Tomorrow is our first month aniversary..Haha..Cool right?

Well got to go already..Bye2 everyone..Take care..And i miss him lots..

Update!!

Well on Monday went out with Abdul and he actually hold my hand.. How cool is that.. Haha.. We went to Marina square first to walk2.. Then we went to eat at Burger King.. We spent 1/2 an hour there talking and eating..I ate quite slow actually...Haha..Then we went to Suntec City..Wanted to find for my sis a Roxy wallet..But there was no Roxy shop there..So we went to esplanade..Wanted to find a place to sit down but everywhere was wet as it rained..So we went home instead..It was around 7.. We sat in the train and i felt tired..So he let me sleep on his shoulder and held my hand..Haha..Then i slept..But my mum called then i woke up..Haha..We reached the interchange and he followed me go to Civic Centre as i wanted to put in money to top up my sis hi card..Then i went home.. He went to Causeway point to buy something.. Then he SMS me saying he forgot to give me a birthday kiss..Haha..Well i might be getting it this Friday..Cause he will be getting his..His birthday is on this Friday and we are going to Escape..Cool right..Haha..


Well yesterday went out with my cousins..Quite nice..But tiring..Was walking all the way..Suppose to go out with Celeste and Jowell but my mum suddenly changed her mind..For no reason..What is her problem?We go out also never ask her money..She ar..Got attitude problem..Cant be bothered with her..And sorry Celeste and Jowell..Well yesterday was tired..But still called Abdul..But my sis was like talking to him very long..Then this morning i was angry with him and did not sleep with the teddy..Sad..Yesterday while talking to him i asked him to message his full name but he did not..And i like stupid girl was waiting for his message..Well forget it..Forgiven him already..Today the soccer team from our school is going to have a match..Well good luck..Wish you all the best..Well i will be staying home the whole day i think..Daddy is coming back..

And ya..Tasha broke up with Joseph..Sad..Tasha is really sad..I feel sad for her also..Haiz..Wish her good luck in her love life..


Till next time...Buaiz everyone..Take care..Be happy always...

Birthday! =>

Well yesterday was my birthday. Had a small birthday party. Well sorry for those friend that was not invited. I had a limit. Those who were there, Nurul,Tasha,Amelea,Nisa,Joseph,Abdul & abang Nazlie. Thanks for coming. You made my day happy => Haha. Well thanks to my sis,cousins,my neighbour,brother and of course my mum and dad for helping me make my day happen. Well turn 14. Haha. Yesterday had lots of present. More than expected. Haha. Got $100 bucks from my chinese grandma. How cool is that? My sis and bro and of course my cousins were all jealous. Haha. Too bad people. My dad was happy for me as i turned 14. Thanks daddy. You're the best. Love ya alot. My mum had to wake up early to cook. Thanks mummy. I love ya too.

Today going out with Abdul. He going to bring me out to celebrate my birthday. Cool right? Yesterday he gave me a present which is a teddy bear and has 'I Love You' on it. Well i was happy and even slept with the bear. He also gave me a pendent which has a 'A' and i wore it. Haha. Very happy. Today my cousins will be at my house. Well good. They are fun to play with. Haha. But they are going home today i think. =<>Till next time i update this blog. Buaiz everyone. Take care. And just have fun this holidays yeah.

Happpie Dae! =>

Well yesterday was superb.. Went shopping with parents.Bought lots of things. I bought a nice 'Little Princess' t-shirt and totally love it.Bought a new pants and new shoes. Daddy was like wants to buy for us everything.The only thing that i wanted he forgot to buy.That is my Britney Greatest hit CD.Wasted.Wanted that CD real bad.My brother bought this expensive car.Which cost my dad $59.90.Expensive right?Then my sis also bought a shirt,skirt and shoes.My mum bought two new shirt and my dad a wallet.We all got things on that dae. We went home around 8 and went down to eat at al-ameen.

Today went to eat lunch with Syafiq and Izzdin.Then went shoppin with my mummy and my mummy friend.Haha.Nice shopping.If anyones wants to know what i like for my birthday.I would say anything pinky.Okies.Haha.Well today is Nasri birthday and i wish him happy birthday exactly at 12.Haha. Now doing nothing at home except playing the com and watching tv.Miss him alots.Want to meet him.Well got to go already.


P.S.Miss you lots.Love ya always

Buaiz everyonne.Till next time i blog.Take care and enjoy your holiday.

Update!

Well long time since i blog..Sorry..Did not have time to use the computer..Too busy everyday..Today manage to steal some time to blog.. Haha..

Well this whole week was quite a tiring week.On Monday went out go hari raya with alot of frens..Walked until i want to go crazy..Reached home at 11.30..The next day went hari raya again..This time with my irritating brother..We went to the teacher's house..Then on Wed i went Snow City..It was like super fun..And super cold.. My face was all red when i came out..Haha..Look like fuji apple..haha.Then my fingers went all numb..On thursday was the happiest day..I went out with Abdul..Imagine that..Anyway people we are on..Haha..We went to watch Taxi and i was like sitting beside him..Haha..Then he sent me home..How sweet is that??Haha..Well today is another day..And i have no plan..

Next week is a happening week..Nasri birthdae on mondae...Get to know my class on Tuesdae..Azri birthdae on Wednesdae..Britney and Mikhail birthdae on thursdae..Mine birthday on Sunday..But i am not celebrating..Saddie..But hope that i will get lots of presents ya..

Well gtg..Till next time people..Buaiz..Take care

Update

Well its been a long time since i blog..Sorry..Too busy collectin money..Haha..Well tis year hari raya is like quite boring..Dont have the nice feelings which i use to have last year..

Got my results..Did not get 70%..Haiz so dissapointing...But my dad is gonna still buy me a Hp..Yeah...Sorry dad to dissapoint u...My sis did not do so well either..But i thin she did her best...Thumbs Up For My Sis...She is getting a new Hp as well...Yeah...

Well gtg already...Oh ya..i did not go skool todae...Haha..Got bad headache..But gonna meet sis after skool to go walk2 at causeway...Well till nxt time..Buaiz...

My Decision!!

Well most probably my decision will be bein a single..Till nxt year probably..Dun wanna get hurt anymore..Jus dun...Hate my self though if i reject him...But i cant think of wad will happen to me if i am wit him...Jus feelin fraustrated and angry..And saddie...Haiz..Is there anyone hu can help me??

Well now is not the time to get sick..Feelin restless lately..Cant help myself to do anythin around hse..But nw i am feelin better though...

On fridae had a great time..After the opening ceremony went to causeway wif tahsa,nisa and the band members..Bt i cld not really brin myself to smile..Feelin too sick..well luckily my frens were there to cheer me up..Well hopefully we stay frens foreva...


Till nxt time..Buaiz everyone..

Cool dae =>

Well todae did not go skool...too tired...But manage too make cookies for Hari Raya...cant wait for the dae to cum..There will lots of forgiving sessions..And we cannt forget the money we are gonna get..Lots..-+HaHa+-

At 4..Was at skool..Doin chocolates for the openin ceremony..Gonna be a borin dae on Fridae i guess...For break fast todae ate nasi lemak provided by the skool...Went home around 8.50..Reach home around 9.30..so late..

Well i have to make a decision on 14..To be single or not to be...-++Haiz++-..Well thinkin bout it...jus now saw him at skool..Everyone was makin fun of me...So embarrasing..This poem is for all the boys...Taken from dolliecrave..


If you love me like
You told me please
Be careful with my
Heart you can take it
Just dun break it or my
World will fall apart