teacher's day performance

so today i performed.

after not being in school for 2 days

people said i skipped school and only go to school for today's performance

hello people.

i was sick the last two days

make it three

since monday

bad flu and cough

after a long time ok

i have MC!

i nearly lost my voice today.

so i am still sick

so today.

came to school early.

gave the homemade cupcakes that sis,me and shan did the day before to the teachers

plus mummy and ella and auntie yenny.

hope they like it.

*cross fingers*

then the performance was brought foward

damn it.

so we had to rush

and our make up was super lame ok

supermen and women

*faints*

we like did the same thing for three consecutive dances.

Danceworks: Blue Colour Paint

Ballet Under The Stars: Gold Colour Paint

Teacher's Day Performance 2006: Yellow colour performance.

wadda hell!!

performance was great though

the curtains open..

everyone was like screaming.

eh there is Aqilah!

you know why?

cause of my damn curly hair.

the only one with curly hair.

today our ex students came.

guess who came?

yeah nasri and abdul.

i think my appearance reminded them of me.

haiz.

the interhouse soccer.

Teachers VS Abang Nazlie Team

damn lame.

not really lah

Mr Lim Soo Chen played well!

he fell down i nearly cried.

argh.

so sad.

Teachers won. 1- 0

i had to stand in the rain.

cause i promised Abang Nazlie i cheered for him.

then went back,

had a bloody damn headache

but i endured

ate my medicine from the doctor and then had to become teacher.

for something lah.

for me to know.

for you guys to find out.

then become teacher.

then tired already.

must study.

now i am like so sleepy.

ok going to study more now.

then go to bed.

N'level malay and N'level Social Studies next week

god bless me.

toodles!

goodnight.

sweet dreams to all.

lala*

today.

so well i got my results back.

i passed all.

but my 3 best subject is 6 points.

so disappointing.

My three best subject is Maths: 1, Combined Science:2, POA:3

so disappointing!!

my Combined Science is 73%

damn that 2 marks!

Farhannah is obviously much better than me.

She won me in all subjects.

except combined humanities luh.

I w0n her by 3%

big deal.

I got 2nd in class for Social Studies.

Which is suppose to be first.

If not for my darling Leong Kor.

its ok.

daddy thinks that i did well.

i don't think so.

MY MARKS:

Combined Science:

Chemistry-41/50

Physics-31.5/50

total combined science:73%

English: unknown.

Combined Humanities:

Geography-29/50

Social Studies-39/50

total Combined Humanities: 68%

Mathematics:

Paper 1 - 51/60

Paper 2 - 28/40

total Mathematics:79%

Principal Of Accounts:

Paper 1 - 21.5/40

Paper 2 - 43.5/60

Total POA:65%

Malay:

Paper 1 - 44/70

Paper 2 - 46/70

Listening Comprehension - 18/20

total Malay:67.5%

Ok so today was a damn fun day in school i guess.

my class was damn retarded.

serious.

i swear i nearly died of heart attack.

our darling mr bobdog(Mr Seah),

he did not come to our class.

then , Leong Kor locked the class from inside.

and threw the key out.

damn dumb.

but it was fun.

until he threw the key down the carpark.

omg.

i was scared the key will get run over.

then they asked Naresh to take the key.

haha.

he quickly ran down.

damn funny.

we even videoed it.

then after we got the key back,

we then wanted to pretend to be angry with Mr Seah.

so Leong Kor threw the key outside the class.

in the end,

Mr Seah did not come.

so retarded.

then one foreigner passed by.

saw the key,

picked it up,

and leong kor thought he was going to throw it.

ahah.

so funny.

then the man gave our key.

but Leong Kor Kor threw it again.

haha.

then he threw my pencil box out.

WAH!

so mean luh they all,

lucky the tamil people finished their lessons.

so we got our key.

i got my pencil box.

and did i tell you Leong threw Raviin bag out.

so FUNNYY!!!

haha.

ok thats all.

my day was fine.

except that i had been really tired these few days.

i can't sleep early.

kept thinking about Nasri friend said.

it really seriously hurt me.

i won't sleep until late.

folding paper crane.

hand pain.

so today i was tired.

so i cancelled my religious class to tomorrow.

Monday have dance

i might be performing for Teacher's Day!

yeahness.

i am actually getting lazier.

getting fatter.

dancing saves my life

(:

so toodles all.

i am trying to be happy thanks to my fellow friends.

and i hope tasha gets well soon!

lala*

stupid people

i hate my stupid frigginn life!

this is so fucking damn stupid.

ok so not many people are reading my blog.

i am just writing to myself.

aqilah!

you are so..

argh..

nasri is so argh!

he actually made his friend write an email for me.

so damn fucking stupid email.

this is what his friend wrote..

To aqilah:
I wanna tell you that i am able to move on. in fact i am doing it. i find it most unusual and amusing to feel re-born. feeling much more happier than my usual self.
I think that you have feelings for another guy. i find it odd to not getting hurt about this. wanna noe wad makes me think so? well. number 1: if i were to love someone so much( not only me but every normal and usual humans), i would not use my exams as a reason. relationships does not distracts one from successing. infact it DRIVES someone to success. you should read those quotations books. well, the part about handling relationship and studies at the same time all comes down to maturity of that person in time management. most unfortunately, i have to say that this quality you lack. you tried too hard in doing one thing that you forget the rest. and most unfortunately too that i want a gf that has this quality: the ability to manage things without supervision. now, i am not insulting you but am trying to say that you try too hard in doing things in life. saddens me to say this though..
Now about your sis and her bf. i wanna ask u something in return and hope u think deeply about it. which relationships have no arguements or ups and downs? even adam and eve have argued. if you are comparing yourself and a guy whom you have relationship, with your sis and her bf, i think it would simply be lame. its not concrete enough. all the things you said makes me think that if we were to go on, i think we would break-up very very easily due to one thing: lack of commitment. you may hate me after i write this but this is the only way that i can break this to you. i loved you. i waited. and now i lost my faith. lost my hope. lost my love.
may the guys that you will go on with in the future have better luck than i have. sorry

so damn shit.

the shitty feeling is back.

i cried last night cause of his fucking friend.

i turned you down.

with a good intention

i don't want to hurt you.

and there you are saying that i am immature.

wait.

your friend said it.

so be it.

i am a fucking bitch.

i am fucking stupid.

i am fucking lame.

just go away.

get out of my life.

change of url

well as you can see,

my url has change.

so those who know.

don't link me.

keep it to yourself.

i am only giving it to those whom i really treasure.

so thanks.

and sorry for any inconvienience.

take care.

kinda feeling down.

so yeah.

will chat next time.

i need TASHA NOW!

please come back asap.

thanks

last paper.

finally!

have waited for this faithful day.

my prelimanaries are OVER!!!

ok that is like way cool.

and now i am just waiting for my N' LEVEL.

life has been bitchy.

i keep having thoughts about my future.

way freaky.

i am thinking about who will be my friends.

who will i be entrusted to.

this is like too early.

oh well.

i have to get ready for religious class.

damn tired ok!

some lyrics from Christina Augilera song.

When there's no one else

Look inside yourself

Like your oldest friend

Just trust the voice within

Then you'll find the strength

That will guide your way

If you will learn to begin

To trust the voice within

note to self* [just hope i am doing the right things in my life]

toodles all.

lala*

a shit ass liar.

Tiara you never learn.
you are going around lying.
why must you lie that you are staying in a condo?
does that makes you feel better?
you mean me staying in a condo means you must stay in a condo.
i don't think little of people staying in a flat ok.
if i can i would want to.
no point lying about my status.
think i am rich?
well think again.

i am so sick and tired of your lies.
i hate friends who lie to me.
at least talk behind my back,
bullshiting me.
i will accept.
but lying...

Preliminaries are here.
life has been hacked.
but thanks to beautiful people.
it is ok.

i have just taken my Social Studies paper.

it was ok.

i am just glad it is over.

now is geography,chemistry,physics,math and POA.

then i am over and done with.

left with focusing on my N' levels.

some people feel so insecure of themselves.

although i may stay in a condo,

i do not go around bossing people.

instead i share my pleasure with friends.

i have parties and sleepovers once in a while.

where we can enjoy the aircon, do barbeque and even go swimming.

but lying about where you live.

is so disgusting!

TIARA!

LISTEN TO THIS.

TELL THE TRUTH!

YOUR IDENTITY!

YOUR REAL NAME!
EVERYTHING!
STOP HURTING PEOPLE!

WAKE UP TO REALITY!

THANKS!

i got to go get ready.

am going out.

hope nothing happens.

toodles everyone.

and i am proud for what i am!

I LOVE ME!

thanks

(:

lala*

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ballet under the stars performance

so i finally did my performance.

my LAST performance with CHR MODERN DANCE.

and we all rocked that day with a great performance.

although some of us screwed up.

i know we did our best.

our effort paid off.

all those hard work and trainings we put in.

we did out best.

thanks to PELYN, DIYANAH, SAMANTHA NATASHA, KENZI, JOAN, JOLENE, CHRISTINA, XUE NI, SEAN, JANREZ, WILLIAN, BENSON and our instructor MR ADAM.

and a BIG thank you to MISS TAN for always being there and for the Macdonalds meal

(:

it has been nice.

being a part of CHR modern dance.

i love every time and effort i spend with my fellow dancemates.

we will be dancers forever!

All the best to you guys for next year ok.

next year will be an important year as you guys are having your SYF

bring the honour to our school by getting silver ok!

hehe.

well the night ended with a bad night.

my whole family and even nina and fana did not get to watch my performance.

firstly the stupid ticket said the performance starts at 7.30

which is suppose to be 6.30

secondly, the parking space is so difficult to find.

and you have to walk up so many stairs.

so in the end,

they could not see the performance.

daddy got angry.

my whole family was angry.

and therefore i cried cause they scold.

miss tan helped me called the person up.

stupid organizers.

ok then yesterday.

i went out.

we went to a party.

it was farah's birthday!

haha.

she turned 5 years old yesterday.

then went home.

today,

i am going out later.

now waiting for the rain to stop.

well that's all.

and pictures later!

hehe

(:

toodles all!

lala*

malay n' level oral

well shitness.

today was malay oral

it was ok.

but it was seriously tough.

glad that is over.

so i can announce...

MY N' LEVEL ORALS ARE SO O-V-E-RRRRRR!!!

yipeee!!

ok prelims starts next week.

but...

i am not prepared.

so shit..

this friday.

to those who wants to know.

I AM DANCING!

for BALLET UNDER THE STARS, at FORT CANNING.

those who wants to go must BOOK the TICKETS, at SISTIC.

the amount you have to pay is about $20 bucks.

the date is 28th July 2006!

ok.

but not forcing anyone.

i mean those who want to go,

and don't be late.

cause my performance is the opening performance.

so yeah.

i had to miss dance today cause of oral.

shitness.

all that nervousness made me tired.

therefore,

my mummy won't let me go.

i so have to catch up on wednesday.

someone help me.

i have not been having enough sleep.

and i am super tired.

friends have been like that.

everyone seems ok.

and i don't want hurt my friends again

so i shall just follow what they do.

and that makes me feel like a total loser.

which apparently i am.

after all that has happened.

i do have alot of friends.

but i don't feel like i have.

i am confused myself actually.

what a sore loser i am.

oh wells.

i just let the days pass.

and if i am without friends,

be it.

i am just thankful for those who have been there for me.

that is all.

oh well.

now i want to sink on the sofa and take a break while drinking root beer.

then off to studies.

toodles.

kisses.

love

lala*

fucked up day.

today is a bad day for me.

it just got worse.

first off,

in the morning.

i had no freaking school uniform,

bad morning!

haiz.

and i had to wear my sister's school uniform.

then came to school.

feeling glum.

talked to iena.

about the post she write.

she say it was not me.

then she say why i 'terasa'.

i felt so stupid

maybe i am.

so then it was recess.

i did not feel like going down.

or talking to anyone

so i stayed in class

then iena said " you angry with me ar?"

then i say "for what?"

then she say" cause i write about you in my blog."

i was hurt.

i felt the pain.

i am just a girl

i am not a good friend

i am a sucky one at that.

now i know

i am naggy like an old grandmother.

i hurt people feelings,

and I AM SORRY TO ALL THE PEOPLE I HAVE HURT.

i am truly sorry

:'(

SORRY TASHA.

SORRY IENA.

SORRY NINA.

SORRY NISA.

SORRY AMY.

SORRY FAEZAH.

SORRY ANANSA.

SORRY FANA.

SORRY NURUL.

SORRY TIARA.

SORRY KAK YANA.

i just feel i did something to you guys.

i am just stupid.

i am not worth being your friends or sister.

sorry if your feelings got hurt by me.

i am dumb.

then i had dance today,

i got distracted

i could not get my moves right

therefore,

blisters came out,

and scolding from mr adam.

i deserve it.

this post is like my day for today.

so much happened.

in just a day.

not trying to find sympathy.

well this is my life.

and iena is right.

i am not the only one having a miserable life.

now i realise.

iena did something for me.

she made me realise.

my life is a fake.

i am nothing but an irritant.

well aqilah

i hate you alot.

just go away.

you will be doing everyone a favour.

thanks.

thats alll.

toodles for now.

kisses.

lala*

update!

update time!

got to spend a few minutes out of my busy schedule.

study, dancing and more study.

i do spent time for myself.

but no more on the computer.

i want to do wel for my prelims.

my aim for next month.

and to be in the 'ballet under the stars' dance.

i want to dance and make it a good last performance.

well ok relax aqilah.

Iena never come today.

tasha also.

iena post makes me feel so guilty.

haiz.

am i naggy?

argh.

gosh i am stupid.

oh wells.

i want to eat.

i want to study.

i want to watch tv.

i want to do everything

but i dont have the time

so sucky huh?

yeah.

welcome to my sucky life.

well thats all.

i want to look for food.

toodles,

kisses.

whatev!

lala*

n level english oral

today i had n' level english oral.

it was damn scary i swear.

i was like freaking out when it was my turn.

kak azlyana and iena was taking the same day as me

(:

Iena is so mean!

school started at 9.30,

still NEVER go school.

*stares at iena angrily*

iena ar always never go school.

today i went back with iena.

and we actually drank 1 1/2 can of F & N

i nearly faint.

ahah.

but it was nicey!

my life has been a total disaster so far.

prelims are like in 24 days.

i am tired.

i have not been sleepin well actually.

i fear of everyday going to school and forgetting to do something.

hmm..

the feeling is definitely not nice.

well nothing exciting happened.

just the fact that i need a break.

so toodles!

kisses

lala*

life not good.

life is not so nice after school started.

my homework are piling.

orals for n levels are coming.

time passed just too fast for us to even notice.

this is not good.

next week monday i will be having my n level english oral.

gosh!

last week was mummy's birthday.

she turned 42

yeahness!

but i still love her nevertheless.

no matter how much she hates me.

hehe

(:

celebrated her birthday last saturday.

with daddy treating us to high tea.

at Scotts hotel.

yeahness

no pictures though.

no camera.

ahah

today is youth day holiday.

and speaking of that,

friday was great.

everyone wore something different.

some just look too weird.

others are unique,

i was told that i looked like teacher.

or someone going to work

-_-

so...

oh well.

ahah.

i took pictures,

but the camera battery is spoiled.

so cant load it.

sorry yeah.

ok.

thats all.

kinda boring actually.

for me.

ahah.

got nothing much to talk about also.

so toodles yeah!

lala*

i hate my life.

i just want to run far away.

and never come back!

:'(

first day of school for semester 2

today is the first day of school.

and so many exciting things are going to happen.

total yeahness!

first.

i and tasha are going to have our last dance.

with modern dance

and fort siloso.

'ballet under the starsl'.

looking out to that.

then this friday we have youth day celebrations!

and we can wear anything we want to wear.

like so cool right?

then next monday is holiday!

yeahness!

today was a boring day you can say.

i was rushing my NYAA,

then on top of that i have to study

this week have mock test already.

faints.

maths and POA!

argh.

i met my friends today!

like so fun.

i was mad.

but then i met tasha after school.

i went to her house.

and she gave me a lollipop from KL.

like so cute and she is so nice.

ahah.

and Faezah gave me a keychain

so sweet luh!

ok my third post for today and i am real tired.

toodles everyone!

kisses!

(:

lala*

weekend photos.

BBQ and swimming at my place(:


it is suppose to be a nice one wit isaac and ella.but only mine and sha2 was nice. ahah(:
us at the pool.looking up.without my sis luh.she is the photographer.yeahness!
us again.hmm..
-END OF SUNDAY'S PHOTOS!-
SENTOSA TRIP CUM AUNTIE YENNY BIRTHDAY!

cant get enough of this statues around. hahaha

baby nayli at my dadd's car.like so cute please.(:

i am trying to teach nayli how to walk ok.and she is trying to.like how sweet

we all walking.and kak yana was taking the pic from the back.coolness.i am in pink(:

me and ella.at the food junction.her heart beat like rocket!ahah.so funny lah she.

me with the young children.i like!ahah.

me and nayli!kawaii neh!i like her eyes!

us posing at the sea

it is the letter LOL!haha.cant you guys see it?

yeahness in the sun!


Sentosa Models 2006!
us having fun at the sun and the sand!


haha.everyone to the right please.ka ching!

me and sha2 on the sun..oooo...

poor fiqrish.so mean ar we people.


we are spiderman and spiderwoman!yeahness!


we just love the camera.sorry.

all of us.without kak yana and mummy and daddy.ahah

nayli,sha2,ella and me.we love the pirate.aiyer.
all the kids that were there.with kak yana(:finally


me and nayli!!so cute right.with out specs!loving it man!


and not to forget.the birthday girl!HAPPY BELATED 41TH BIRTHDAY AUNTIE YENNY!!!woohoo!(:

my weekend

my last weekend for the school holidays were superb!

on Saturday i went to Sentosa and the place is damn great!

yeahness!

then on Sunday we suddenly had to urge to have a BBQ down at my house.

coolness right?

well i will sum all this up with pictures later ok.

(:

back to school

it is back to school in like 2 more days.
my holidays are shit.
i think the only fun thing was the mount kinabalu trip that i will never forget.
that took 2 weeks from the holidays.
and extra 1 week to recover.
like how lame.

i tried to do my homework last week,
but could not.
now i have to rush it.
i still have to finish my maths.
and my chemistry.
and not to mention writing my NYAA
omg.
two more days
die.

tomorrow we are all planing to go to the beach.
to celebrate auntie yenny's birthday.
but i think i am bringing my NYAA book to finish it.
ahah
so enjoy here and there with the children.
while doing homework.
-_-
so lame i know.

mummy's birthday is coming!!!
*screams*
ahah.
i haven plan anything.
maybe high tea with her at Hyatt Hotel will be great huh.
i dont know.
we'll see.
ahah.
it is school night.

ok so that's all..

i went swimming just now.

with nayli,

and the kiddies

like how cute please.

ahah.

i swam a few laps.

toodles!

lala*

love

Aqilah, the one lady that I will go all out just to get her. The one person that melts my heart whenever I just stare into her eyes. It doesn’t matter whether in real-life or in pictures, her eyes, those sparkling little things just melts me. Love and Faith made me patiently wait for her. I don’t mind at all because this is my own choice. She is just one person I would trade my happiness with her sadness if it is needed.

They say there is a lady behind every man’s success. Mine is definitely aqilah. Everything about her is extra-ordinary. Her curly, wavy-locks hair. Her skin. Her facial expression whenever her emotions start to show. I love the way she is. She is near-perfect for me because she is what I am not. She completes me. She is the very part of me that loves pink. She is the very part of me that I need. Without it, it’s difficult to live life happily. Without Aqilah, there is no such thing as “Happily Ever After” in my life. I love her. I may not be her first true love, but that isn’t important to me. Once we are together, the past is nothing but a word. Our hearts have semi-co-operated. Whenever she is sad, sorry, happy, excited or any other emotions, I felt and feel the same, even though I am not near her. Whenever I am sad, sorry, happy, excited or any other emotions, she felt it too. I believe that when God is creating her, HE is looking straight at me. HE may even be saying “The both of you shall be the next Adam & Eve”. How sweet it will be. I want to make her happy. I wish that all those that have ill-feelings towards her reflect about themselves. They must be mad not to enjoy Aqilah’s company. In my world, Aqilah is the queen. My queen. The only one that can change anything in my world. My world will change to our world. Every night, without fail, her image is in my mind. My lappy’s wallpaper is her image. Her image is part of me.

nASRiLAH

AQILAH-ARIEYANTO

omg.

*faints*

this is like how sweet

nasri wrote for me.

ahah.

enjoy reading it.

thanks alot!

lala*

haha.

yesterday i was super uber happy!!

i finally finish 30 hours of CIP

30 HOURS MIND YOU!

it is over.

ahah

relieved.

then yesterday nasri sent me home.

and we walked.

and i nearly fell.

damn embarrasing ok

dont laugh already.

it was super dark ok the place.

no light at all.

damn it.

today was a long day.

i was rushing here and there.

damn tiring ok.

first off..

went to school to meet miss phua!

i will finish my NYAA!

after i write everything

it is all done!

yeahness!

then i rushed back home.

i walked ok,

the heat.

can make you faint ok

really.

got ready and i ran all the way to the bus stop.

took the bus.

and ran all the way to the library.

i took my certificate.

after the 30 hours of pure hard work

haha.

then i ran to meet nurul

I AM SORRY NURUL!

i was 15 mins late.

i try to ran ok.

sorry.

then both of us took the train.

and i started babbling.

we had alot to talk about ok.

girls talk.

ahah

crap and soon we reach newton.

ahah.

we reached the place then we must look for the place.

i told nurul we must find a building that is colourful.

then she so cute.

she say the colour of the building all got colour what.

pink,blue,green.

*stares at nurul*

colourful lah.

not colour!

hahahah.

so cute lah.

then saw colourful building,

and it was a nursery.

we laugh until want to die.

but it was the correct place!

ahah.

so cute please.

went to the place and the person ask us to wait.

we waited for like 1 hour.

so long

and the person talked to me about 10 mins?

WTH!

talked about how the company can improve my confidence.

but have to pay 1000 odd dollars.

damn.

so daddy dont let.

tooooo exxppeennsssiivvee!!

haha.

never mind.

so then we went home.

we went mad.

we laugh.

and talked.

in the train.

we saw this cute eurasian.

the eyes,

so fetch

i want a guy with blue eyes.

or at least light brown.

coolness man.

but no hope luh.

me so not pretty.

ahah.

then nasri sent me home again.

cause he misses me.

like how sweet luh.

but then.

no decision ok.

just friends now.

nothing more.

ahah.

ok i think i wrote alot of crap.

am chatting with crazy people i love.

tasha and nurul!!!

ahah.

i love them please.

i miss iena and fana.

and everyone!!

ahha

yeahness!!!

i gtg.

toodles!

noodles!

poodles!

lala*

[p.s HAPPY SWEET 16TH BIRTHDAY TO NAZIRUL! I LOVE CHA!]