love

its been a long time since i talk about love in this blog.

well what is love to me.

love is nothing to me anymore.

i know that you have to love to be loved in return.

i dont know.

i dont hate abdul.

but he is making me hate him

i dont want to accept any boy.

i know i am just saying this.

but i am just tired.

very.

its too painful.

i wish that there is at least one guy that i can love for the rest of my life.

all things have changed since abdul came and went out of my life.

i dont know me anymore.

the aqilah that was once cheery is gone.

she just cant breathe anymore.

i just want to stick to loving my family.

i guess that is enough for me.

maybe i will just admire the guys.

admire those who are in love.

just admire.

thats all i got to say about love.

practically nothing but crap.

but i am happy that all that was out.

toodles.

lala*