i hate my stupid frigginn life!
this is so fucking damn stupid.
ok so not many people are reading my blog.
i am just writing to myself.
aqilah!
you are so..
argh..
nasri is so argh!
he actually made his friend write an email for me.
so damn fucking stupid email.
this is what his friend wrote..
To aqilah:
I wanna tell you that i am able to move on. in fact i am doing it. i find it most unusual and amusing to feel re-born. feeling much more happier than my usual self.
I think that you have feelings for another guy. i find it odd to not getting hurt about this. wanna noe wad makes me think so? well. number 1: if i were to love someone so much( not only me but every normal and usual humans), i would not use my exams as a reason. relationships does not distracts one from successing. infact it DRIVES someone to success. you should read those quotations books. well, the part about handling relationship and studies at the same time all comes down to maturity of that person in time management. most unfortunately, i have to say that this quality you lack. you tried too hard in doing one thing that you forget the rest. and most unfortunately too that i want a gf that has this quality: the ability to manage things without supervision. now, i am not insulting you but am trying to say that you try too hard in doing things in life. saddens me to say this though..
Now about your sis and her bf. i wanna ask u something in return and hope u think deeply about it. which relationships have no arguements or ups and downs? even adam and eve have argued. if you are comparing yourself and a guy whom you have relationship, with your sis and her bf, i think it would simply be lame. its not concrete enough. all the things you said makes me think that if we were to go on, i think we would break-up very very easily due to one thing: lack of commitment. you may hate me after i write this but this is the only way that i can break this to you. i loved you. i waited. and now i lost my faith. lost my hope. lost my love.
may the guys that you will go on with in the future have better luck than i have. sorry
I wanna tell you that i am able to move on. in fact i am doing it. i find it most unusual and amusing to feel re-born. feeling much more happier than my usual self.
I think that you have feelings for another guy. i find it odd to not getting hurt about this. wanna noe wad makes me think so? well. number 1: if i were to love someone so much( not only me but every normal and usual humans), i would not use my exams as a reason. relationships does not distracts one from successing. infact it DRIVES someone to success. you should read those quotations books. well, the part about handling relationship and studies at the same time all comes down to maturity of that person in time management. most unfortunately, i have to say that this quality you lack. you tried too hard in doing one thing that you forget the rest. and most unfortunately too that i want a gf that has this quality: the ability to manage things without supervision. now, i am not insulting you but am trying to say that you try too hard in doing things in life. saddens me to say this though..
Now about your sis and her bf. i wanna ask u something in return and hope u think deeply about it. which relationships have no arguements or ups and downs? even adam and eve have argued. if you are comparing yourself and a guy whom you have relationship, with your sis and her bf, i think it would simply be lame. its not concrete enough. all the things you said makes me think that if we were to go on, i think we would break-up very very easily due to one thing: lack of commitment. you may hate me after i write this but this is the only way that i can break this to you. i loved you. i waited. and now i lost my faith. lost my hope. lost my love.
may the guys that you will go on with in the future have better luck than i have. sorry
so damn shit.
the shitty feeling is back.
i cried last night cause of his fucking friend.
i turned you down.
with a good intention
i don't want to hurt you.
and there you are saying that i am immature.
wait.
your friend said it.
so be it.
i am a fucking bitch.
i am fucking stupid.
i am fucking lame.
just go away.
get out of my life.
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