happy halloween

Today is halloween.

I became a genie thanks to my modern dance costume.

Collected lots of sweets together with amy and tasha as well.

Alot of nice costumes around.

Maybe next year i will be princess or miss universe.

hehe (:

Tomorrow i going out with abdul so now i must clean the house.

Toddles.

Take care everyone.

And to the hindus.

HAPPY DEEPAVALI!!!

lala *

results.

my report book is back.

guess what.

i got 8th in class and in the whole normal acad.

woohoo!

lets party man.

i am like so freaking happy about my results.

top 10.

hmm ok enough about that.

i am quarreling with him.

dont know lah he.

he just cant understand me.

i am like so freaking sad.

haiz.

i dont know how long this will go on.

ok lah

gtg

will update more next time.

toodles.

lala*

sobx.

He was here.

From 7.30 to 9.30

but it felt like 5 mins.

my asshole brother made my dad come back tomorrow.

so shit.

not that i hate him.

i cant spent time with abdul.

haiz.

life is so unpredictable.

today get scolding from my mummy till like shit.

i am just trying to make cookies.

is that wrong.

everyone dont want to do it.

and one mistake and i will get one hell of a scolding.

tomorrow have IT course and training.

so stress.

i want to get school over and done with.

tomorrow also might get report book.

i am going to the school dinner anyway.

so bored.

and the house is damn messy.

so shit.

got to go.

toddles.

lala*

update

so hari raya is coming.

not very excited this year.

again.

this year is like so fast hari raya already.

so boring.

today just started to make cookies.

make cornflakes and chocolate chip.

then will be making two type of chocolate thingy.

then another round of chocolate chip.

then it is done.

the rest will be buying at malaysia.

tomorrow i will go school.

today i never.

tomorrow i got course.

and then got training.

so tiring.

wednesday go school for i also dont know.

then after school go malaysia take the hari raya clothes.

thursaday go school.

after school got course.

i will go out with abdul either thursday or friday.

someone seriously have a big problem with me.

dont want to name that person.

but that person despise me alot.

have i changed?

this is a question to everyone and that particular person.

if have anything to say tell me.

if not just dont say anyhow.

this is crap man.

frustrated?

yes i am very.

got to go clean up the damn house.

if not my sis say i will not do anything.

i very lazy.

blah, blah, blah.

toddles everyone.

lala *

english results.

I am so sad.

Just when all my results are passing,

i had to fail my damn english.

not really overall.

paper 2.

but this is so sad.

Haiz.

I am sick again.

I haven recover.

So i am not in school yet.

I miss my friends alot.

I want to go to school tomorrow.

lala*

results!

Ok i am sick.

Very sick.

Cannot sleep the whole of last night.

Just thinking about him is making it worse.

He hardly sleep a wink last night.

You dont want to know the reason why.

I am just so worried about him.

I am not angry with him.

I dont want to for no reason.

Haiz.

I dont know what to say.

:(

Today i did not go school.

But my darling friends tell me my marks.

It is as followed.

Principal of accounts - 75/100

Geography - 36/50

Social Studies - 25/50

Malay - 78/100

Physics - 32.5/50

Chemistry - 39.5/50

Maths - 50/100

English - unknown.

You can say i did well.

But i dont think i did.

I just pass my maths and social studies.

Haiz.

Well for the rest maybe i am getting the hang of it.

Just waiting for my english results.

Tired now.

Want to rest.

Toodles.

lala *

happy 8th birthday.

God has blessed us with a boy named Isaac Oreth.

Born on the 8th October 1997.

Today he celebrates his 8th birthday.

Well from a sister to this brother.

I just want to wish you all the best in life.

And i will always love you although you are an irritating pest.

Muacks!

11th month anniversary/

this is so called my saddest day.

11th month anniversary.

and i am not with him.

haiz.

he said that if he blames me also what is the use.

so i guess i am to be blamed.

i am the girl that everyone hates.

my chest hurts.

i am sick.

no one hears my sorrow.

i am sorry.

that is all i can say.

i know it is always my fault.

what you said made me cry and has hurt me deeply.

but i know it is my fault.

sorry.

now i am stupidly thinking of stupid things.

this is so shit.

shit.

i just want to cry.

tralalala

Ok exams are finally O-V-E-R!!!

So glad that it is over.

Been stressed until cannot stress already.

Today the final paper was Principal Of Accounts.

Ok how was it? It was quite ok.

Not very easy paper.

Abdul is sick

I am sorry.

I have been a jerk lately.

Causing my examinations period to affect you.

Am sorry that i could not visit you today.

I feel so bad.

Sorry.

Well take care.

I love you alot.

I dont like to see you sick.

Today is going to be the 8th day of the fasting month.

Many things happen.

Mastura: Dont be too sad girl. Your guy will get well. God will always be with him Cheer up (:

Abdul: Please take care. I love you alot.

Ok to the rest. Just take care.

Be dengue free.

Muacks.

Toodles.

Enjoy the bulan ramadhan to all the muslims.

lala *

End of year exams.

Ok so fasting month is here. Good news. Then my exams are almost over. Two more days till all my misery is done. Have not been myself lately cause of the pressure i am in. Tomorrow is physics. My worst nightmare. Today was maths and i nearly cried. Cause i did not know alot of things and i did alot of stupid mistakes. This is so depressing. I just hope that i dont do so bad. I cant afford to. My dad has so much confidence in me. I dont want to let him and my mummy down again after my common test.

Ok so fasting month. Today is the 6th day already. I have like about 24 more days to go till hari raya. Woohoo... But i miss Abdul alot. Cause we cant touch each other during fasting month. It is a sin. Dont really know why it is a sin. But i will just follow it for now and find the answer another time. I am damn tired now. But i have to go study for my physics. Toodles everyone. Wish me all the best and may god bless me for tomorrow.



lala *

back

Well ok been a very long time since i update. Well life has been stressful due to examinations. Today is the first day of the major paper. Geography and social studies one day. Head now going haywire. Here is my exam schedule:

30th November - English and Malay paper 1.
5th October - Geography and Social Studies.
6th October - English and Malay paper 2.
7th October - Science(Chemistry) .
10th October - Mathematics paper 1 & 2 .
11th October - Science(Physics) .
12th October - Principle of Accounts 1 & 2 .

Well this is going to be crazy. I want to pass all. ALL!!!! I dont want to do badly. I am so stressed up. I have a headache and my stupid bro is like crying cause never go library. So shit. Haiz.I miss him alot. Alot that i want to hug and kiss him and lala with him. I miss him :'(

Anyway got to go now. Have to study for my chem and physics. Bye everyone.


lala *

Sobx \

I dont know what i am thinking anymore. I dont want to think anymore about unwanted stuffs. I cant take anymore. My studies. I am trying my so very best. That it hurts me you can say.

So the other things i am refering to well is my other social things. Cant really detailed it cause i got no strength. All my strength is gone. I am so weak that i can barely do anything. I am feeling sad. But i dont know why. So sad. My stomach has been weak lately. So i barely eat. Eat abit here and there. Ok. I dont want to write no more. I am too sad. Quarrel with him.


My exams are just around the corner. May god bless me. May it help me with my studies. But i must help myself. Well really trying real hard. I want to pass. Now i dont have confidence. So stressed and i haven even wash the dishes. Shit lah.


lala *

SentoSa!

Tralalala. hehe. Back from SentoSa. I slept overnight there at Shangri-La's Rasa SentoSa ResoRt. Whee. Hotel. A Singaporean staying in Singapore hotel. Haha. What to do? Malaysia now corrupted like hell. People killing here and there. Robbing here and there. Rapping here and there. The place is a nightmare. Now want to go also must wear like apek and nonya. Ok stop here. I want to talk about SentoSa tRip.

Well we checked in around 2 noon. With the help ok Kak Shirin driving the car over. If not i think we will reach later. Haha. Well went to put the things all. Then went to eat at Burger King. Then went back to the hotel rest. Then went to Fort SiloSo. Then went to the SiloSo beach. Then went Swimming. Then went back to the hotel change. Then went to Musical Fountain. Then went to the hotel cafe to eat dinner. Then went back to sleep.That was for yesterday.

Today woke up at 8. Went for complimentary breakfast at the hotel cafe. Then we straight away went to the arcade. Haha. Played there awhile. Then to the pool table. Where i played pool for the first time against my sis and i won. Whee! Luck i guess. haha. Then from there we went to back to the room to freshen up. We checked out around 11.30. Went out of Sentosa then went to Suntec City do shopping abit. Then back to home sweet home. Tired. Went to clean all that. Now i am blogging.

Got to go sleep for tomorrow. Goodnight everyone.


butterfly kisses *
Lala

-Many happy happenings.

Well first of all HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KENZI ONG and my classmate JANICE LIM. One has turn 13 and the other 15. Well wish them all the best only. Take care.

Then today is my ten month anniversary. Happy 10th month anniversary baby. I love you loads. Muacks! I am glad that we are still together. And i want to be with you forever and ever. I want to marry you and i want to have your kids. I cant wait for my 1 year anniversary. I am sorry i cant spent time with you. I am really sorry. I feel so bad. But i just want you to know that i love you alot. I can only spent more time with you after the end of year exams. That is when i wont have to worry on alot of things. I am sorry that i caused you alot of sadness and misery to your life.. Just sorry. Well i dont know what to say anymore. I got to go.

I love my family. Alot. All of them has sacrificed for me. They even shed tears for me. I am truely grateful. Thank you.

I got to go. Till next time i blog. Goodbye. Take care.


butterfly kisses *
Aqilah Oreth

....

The world is upside down now. Does anyone feel the same thing that i am feeling? The feeling of pain and just pure shit.

Ever heard of a younger brother calling you an idiot? Well mine does. My brother at the age of 8 whom controls my mum, sis and me. Seriously the world is upside down already. He is always asking for the damn toys. Which some he plays while and throw it away once he get bored of it. People says he is a young boy. Just eight. Well this stupid boy must be damn bloody stupid to me. He is not young to me. He surely have common sense. Unless he is so stupid. Have a pea brain. Then i accept. Maybe he is? Well what the fcuk. He is an ass to me. Someone whom i hate alot. Someone who does not need my respect. Someone rude.

Today i went to Malaysia. Went to do my baju raya. Abit too early huh? But better be early then late. Since we got the materials already. Went to look for the tailor was difficult. They shifted. And the weather was like freaking hot. Then we saw the place. But went to eat first at City. The we are me,mummy,sis and Sandral. So glad my brother was not there. Ok come back. After eating, went to look for the tailor. Found it at a small shopping mall. Did the measurement and stuffs. Then went off back to City Square. There went shopping. It was fun. Sandral bought a roxy wallet,skirt and shorts. Mummy bought pants. Sis bought skirt and i got myself a long pants. We were shopping like mad. Spent alot of money also. But it was quite cheap. I think Sandral was happy. So were we.

Then we went home. Took the bus. Sandral came to my house. Mummy went to work. Then Abdul came. That is when my brother made trouble. He called me an idiot. That was why i got angry. I called my mum. Told him he was at my house. Then she gave me 10 mins. Tell me what can you do with your boyfriend for 10 damn minutes. Practically nothing.

He went home. I knew he was sad. From the look of his face. I just feel so damn freaking bad. I am the meanest girl in the world. Each time i have to tell him to leave. He came all the way. Then he go home. He was so freaking sad. Now i dont know what to do no more. I miss him alot. And it is alot. We dont spend time together. We never go out also. Haiz. No one knows what i am feeling inside.

That is all i did today. I will be loving him always. Muacks.I love you Abdul!!

pRinceSs lala :'(

Life for me this days?

Well trying to be happy. But everyday just turns out to be a i dont know how to describe. this is just so fraustrating. I am so sad.

Today i am quite tired you can say. Woke up at 5.45 to go to school. Had belumut training from 7.30-8.30. Ran 5 rounds the death track[the track outside CHR where we use to run now]. Then finished i went to Banquet. With amelea and tasha. We ate. Then my baby come and fetch me go school. Then i actually lost my hp. I left it at Banquet. A kind man helped me to keep. Then my baby called the man. Then we went to take the hp. The man actually went to call my daddy. Who is at Batam. Gosh. There goes my prepaid. Then modern dance was for 2 long hours. With Adam. Pain. Then Miss Tan treat us KFC. So nice. Then i went home. Planned to sleep. But then i went swimming instead. Then met up with Abdul. Talk to him awhile. Then i have to pick up my stupid irritaing no respect for elders brother. This is just so fraustrating. I had to wait fo rthe bus for half an hour. Stupid bus. Moron. Then go there see my asshole bro buy toys. Then left. What a waste of time. So shit. Now here blogging away.


People do love me. People like Abdul, Nasriah and Amelea and Tasha. I so love them. Thanks. Alot of thanks. And to my other friend. Just thank you alot.


I dont know what is happening in my life. Just have to figure out i guess. Well i am so tired right now.


I am sorry baby. I have been creating problems for you one after another.One after another. Making you sad everyday. Haiz. I am stupid. I am sorry. I am sorry. I am sorry.


pRinceSs Lala :'(

SorRy

I am sorry. I am sorry. I dont know what to do anymore. You are not useless. Dont say like that. You are not useless. I love you alot. I was stupid to say that. Sorry. Sorry :'( Sorry. Sorry. I am sorry. Sorry. You are not the useless one. I am.Sorry. sorry :'(


Sorry. Sorry :'(



I love you alot2. I love you.Really :'(

A little of disappointment and alot of sadness

Sometimes i just feel like giving up. I did not do well for my exams. It is atrocious. The results i get shows the me. The real me is a fucking girl with a low IQ. I wanted to give up. My friends told me not to. So i wont. I fail three subjects. This whole year i never failed. This is to sad. I wont give up though.

I failed my Social Studies,Physics and POA. This is too much for me to handle. I may look happy. But sometimes i feel like breaking down to cry all the way. People have given me advices. I am thankful. Thanks. But this does not change anything. I am still so sad. Iwant to die. I feel like slitting my wrist. With a blade. This is so shit. I am shit. Everyone hates me. I just want to kill myself. Maybe a slow death is great.

I want to die. I want to die. I want to die. I want to die. I want to die. I want to die.I want to kill myself. I want to die. I want to kill myself. I dont want to live anymore. I am so stress. Argh!!!!


Aqilah Oreth

Is it a good or bad day?

Well firstly i would like to wish this people Happy Birthday. My darling sister. Happy 16th birthday. My friend Emilyza. Happy 14th birthday chicken. Hehe. Well two happy people turning older. Wonder when it is going to be my turn. I just hope i dont change too much though. Haiz. Ok well today had a small party for my sis. Sandral,Hui Shan and Abang Nazlie came. Ate cake and ate a few finger food. Then they went home. That is all.

Today get results. It is as follow. Physics:10/25.Chemistry:18/25.English:18/30.Maths:16/30.Geography:17/25.
That is what i get. Bad grades. Dont know what to say already.

Today is like pure shit. I slept like late night. Not late. Just woke up like a billion times. Wanted to talk to him but cannot. Then today i like went to look for him at the soccer court. he made me stand there like an idiot and say that later he will meet me. But what the hell can we talk about for 5 mins. Shit. This is all shit. I am just an idiot. An ass. I just hate him for doing that to me. Like countless time. The same thing. I just hate my life. Why do i have to go through this. This just sucks.


I dont know what to do anymore. My right side of near the stomach hurts. Like shit. Just feel like dying. No one knows. Only me. My mummy know then she say how? That was all. I feel like crying. I feel so lonely. I feel so sad. I got to go already.


Goodbye and so long. Till next time.



love,
Aqilah Oreth

My day!

Well i bought a new bikini! Yeahs! Yesterday went to Sentosa. For picnic and to just enjoy at the beach. It was ok. My sister bought a new Roxy shorts for her birthday. Then today i bought for her a barney ballon . And she also got money from my grandma. She is happy. Good enough.Well this is a short entry . Tomorrow i might update more. Till then goodbye!



love,
pRinceSs Lala